(PKG) Pinaghalong Kape at Gatas

Chapter 10: IF I STAY

"tss. sh*t!"

(Rits' POV)

"why is this happening?!"

nainis talaga ako kanina.

nasa apartment na ako ngayon, nagpapalamig ng ulo.

"ba't ba kasi bigla siyang sumusulpot? Nabuking tuloy ako. Kainis!!"

"ng mommy mo ma'am?" -yaya

"chismosa! umalis ka nga."

"pero talaga ma'am? nabuking ka niya?" -yaya

"shut up! get out."

bigla-biglang pumapasok sa kwarto. tsk

"yehey! Wala na akong itatago pa. Salamat naman at nabuking ka na ma'am."-yaya

"pardon me?"

"ah eh.. Nag-aalala lang po kasi ako sa kalusugan niyo ma'am." -yaya

"you don't effin' care!"

"get out." dagdag ko.

"eh kasi naman po--" -yaya

"I said, GET OUT!"

umalis na siya.

salamat naman.

bigla-bigla, tumunog ang selpon ko.

*Lacey Bestie calling..*

"oh?"

"(bestie.. I heard..)"

"na nabuking ako? Yes."

"(ok ka lang ba bestie? tumawag kasi si--)"

"si mommy? oh, no problem. Ang chismosa talaga niya."

"(bestie... She's right... You need to be back to normal.)"

"oh really? so sa kanya ka kampi? Great! Magsama kayo!"

"(Hindi nama--)"

binabaan ko siya.

maldita na kung maldita.

the hell I care!

---

and it's morning.

4am.

naalimpungatan ako kasi may parang gumagalaw ng buhok ko.

"the heck! What are you doing here??!"

"can we talk?" -mom

"no."

umalis na ako sa kama. Lalabas sana ako ng kwarto when I heard her sobbing.

She's crying.

lumapit ako sa kanya.

"what do you want?" cold pa rin ako.

kahit maldita ako, ayaw ko rin namang nasasaktan ang mga mahal ko. At syempre mahal ko naman si mommy ang di ko lang talaga gusto ay ang step father ko, kaya minsan nadadamay sa galit ko si mommy.

"please.. let's talk." -mom

"we're talking."

"I mean... Yung matino anak."-mom

anak.... That hit me.

"tell me right now for I am not wasting my time for this stupid conversation!"

"ok ok... I want you to be back to normal and never tan your skin again... and.."-mom

"and what?"

"we'll go home to Japan."

home? home?! home!

"This is my home."

"no. please.."-mom

"ok. I'm gonna make you a deal."

"what was that?"-mom

I smirked.

she can't resist me.

"I won't tan my skin again, back to normal, blonde hair. IF I STAY!. OR! I will go with you in Japan but I will continue this disguise."
"now choose." I added.

she sighed.

"ok, you'll stay."-mom

I told you. She can't resist me.

"good"

"but please.. If you stay here, take care of yourself. It will take many years that my presence wouldn't be here with you."-mom

"If I stay, I will be happy."

she released a deep sigh.

"I love you my daughter."-mom

I didn't answer.

then she left me unspoken.

I-I was about to say 'I love you too mom', but she left.

then...

tears fall.

I cried.

I wasn't expecting this.

bakit?

bakit?!

bakit ako palaging naiiwan?

can't she just choose her own daughter over that man?!

tsk! I thought she'll stay with me too.

I told her I will be happy if I stay only to persuade her to stay with me.

But..

But..

she left.

Does she really love me?

Did she really loved my dad?

did she really loved us?

If she loved us...

why wouldn't she... just stay with us??

I'm really crying.

IF I STAY...

I wouldn't be happy...

without you mom.

tsk!

she's heartless!