To the moon and back

Does this thigh gap make me look fat?

SOTD: BLANK SPACE BY TAYLOR SWIFT (OMG IF YOU HAVEN'T LISTENED TO HER NEW ALBUM 1989 THEN WHAT ARE YOU DOING WITH YOUR LIFE? SO GOOD!)

I WANTED TO PUT 'WONDERLAND' BUT YOUTUBE IS GOING AROUNG MUTING EVERY VIDEO WITH ANY SONG FROM 1989 *LE SIGH*

>LONG CHAPPIE THIS TIME<

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"That's what the meeting was about?"

After Andrew dropped that bomb on me, I dragged him to his room to try and make sense of things.

"Yes, that's what it was about" he sighed refusing to look at me from where he stood at his window.

I shifted where I sat on the bed and blew air through my lips, "You couldn't tell me?"

I had tried to not sound like a little baby but with the way his eyes met mine, I knew he felt bad.

"It really wasn't because I didn't trust you"

"Then why?"

"...I didn't want to get all hopeful, okay? Telling you about the whole situation would've made it all so real and I knew you would hammer some kind of hope into me" he sighed, "The hope would be useless"

"How can you say that?" I gasped looking at him shocked.

Andrew loved his mother with every fibre of his being. There was something that lit up in him at the mention of her and it was something I couldn't even describe. It made me smile more than I could imagine.

"You won't get it" he whispered shaking his head, "Please just don't make this a big deal, okay?"

"But it is a big deal! It means you can finally get justice for your mom" I tried to reason with him but the glare he shot me made me take a step back.

"Like the justice my dad got?"

"You know I didn't mean it like that"

He put his hands in his sweatshirt pocket and shrugged, "You might as well"

"Okay what is it that has you so upset? Is this about the reopening of the case or your dad getting out of jail?"

"Would you just give it a rest!" He yelled trying hard to keep his voice down.

I stared at him confused and his bright eyes blinked rapidly, shocked by his own outburst.

A part of me wanted to stomp my foot and tell him to stop being a jerk but another part stayed mute. What was I really supposed to say?

I had never, in all my life, dealt with a situation like this and my heart began strumming. There was only ever one time I had felt so lost, and that was when I found out I had been adopted. But with that, there was a sense of ease wherein I could deal with it because it was ME. Here, I was dealing with somebody else...who I never knew what to expect from; so even trying to be rational was like walking across a thin line.

"I'm sorry" I murmured giving him a slow nod, "I can only imagine how hard this must all be...I'm only making things worse"

He quickly walked over to where I stood and looked down at me, "I should be apologizing...I know I'm being a dick and that isn't fair to you"

He gave me a slow smile and put his hands on my shoulders, gently kneading them.

"Well, you're gonna have to be more specific; you're kind of always a dick" I stuck my tongue out and he feigned hurt.

"Wow, Dale, you're killing me here" my eyes widened slightly at his remark, giving the situation that he was going through at the moment, "Don't do that"