I stopped the car when our meant house stood in front of us. I was relieved that it was finally over and that I didn't have to hold the wheel and focus on the road for any longer, yet knots of disgust overwhelmed my stomach at the thought that I had to stay with the bitch Jerrica. I hated that she was my only option, but she owed me this.
Theo was fast asleep, regardless of the completely uncomfortable position, and despite of the noise that started growing as soon as we got into the city, she just folded herself and let sleep take over every bit of her. How soft she looked for a moment, I just somehow felt peace when she found peace. I just had no will to wake her up and interrupt the peace she was at, some part of me preferred to just admire her as she drifted in her dreamless sleep.
At last, I surrendered to having to wake her, for I knew it was better for her to sleep on a bed. In attempts to wake her up, my hand touched her palm, and I can't deny the way my heart started skipping beats when her fingers subconsciously tightened on my hand, squeezing in the most gentle way. It felt like the moment lasted forever, trying to fight away the rush that took me by a blink, when I could feel the heat of her hand blending with my own. Her grip loosened, too slowly her fingers let go of me, but yet the rush refused to go away.
"Th- Theo," I tried washing it all away by speaking, I thought if I spoke, it would all buried deep down. It just didn't work. "Theo, we're here."
"What?" She shifted in her position, still not fully awake.
"We've arrived." I could sense how hesitant my words sounded, and I hated it so fucking much.
I got out of the car, getting slight shivers all over my skin when the cold breeze found an entrance through the thin layers of clothes on me. Trying to warm myself up a little, I made my way to the other side of the car where Theo clung, I could tell that she'd stay asleep in the car if I left her.
"Come on, it will be way more comfortable inside." I opened the door for her. Frankly it felt like I was talking to myself.
She finally gave up, and left the car, standing up on her feet and trying to gain balance as sleep still had her in its grasp. She leaned over me for support, and a second later her fingers were intertwined with mine. I ignored the butterflies this filled my stomach with, and focused on getting her balanced. I felt awful for allowing myself to feel that way, to have a soft spot for her, it didn't feel right at all.
It was all quiet around us, maybe some dogs barking here and there but that wasn't a big deal. I was able to hear our footsteps on the cracked old pavement, and I could hear the heavy breaths she let in and out. I enjoyed the silence as long as it lasted, for I knew a couple of minutes later it will turn to dust.
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I knocked on the white wooden door harshly for the third time, harsh enough that my knuckles were tinted in red and were hurting like I'd punched a wall. And then I waited again, Theo was roaming around the little porch, unable to gather a little bit of patience. By now, the silence became unbearable, and there was nothing more to be enjoyed.
"What the fuck Renee! It's four in the fucking morning!" The door was violently opened, and as soon as I looked at her face, disgust started crushing my guts.
"You were expecting me so don't be the bitch you are. Now fuck off." I had no will to say any other word to her, I was exhausted and I felt like absolute shit and I couldn't stand to glance at her. I pushed her off my way, enough for me to get in. "Come in Theo."
I got in, and Theo hesitantly followed, she was uncomfortable I could tell. The house was dim, barely lit with a few lights that did nothing. The house was too nice for her, she deserves to live in a rat hole.
"So," She stood before us, tying her arms to her chest. "I wasn't expecting any extra guests."
"It's okay, no offense taken." Theo replied once she knew it was directed to her, her reply was too nice. Jerrica faked a smile at her, one that showed despise more than a willingness of fixing things. She followed it with an eye roll of annoyance.
"Well, you really got yourself a nice home." I tried to change the subject, looking around at the house with a little nod of satisfaction as I glued my hands to my hips. "Bet it's not even yours. Where did you get it from?"
"None of your business maybe?" She replied my last question, disturbance hinted through her voice tone. None of us could stand each other, she was so fucking unbearable and I could tell she couldn't stand herself either.
"Right. Now I'm not here for you, where's the fucking room?" I changed the topic again, willing to end the conversation as soon as possible.
She made her way to the room that was supposed to be ours, with fury signs showing on her face as clear as day. We went along with her, and it wasn't few seconds later we were finally left alone in the room with peace finally spreading around when she wasn't anywhere in sight anymore.
