Discovering My Mythical Fate Book 1

Epilogue

A/N: this is a bonus chapter in Ryder's POV and this is just the first book. Tana's story is not over!

Ryder's POV:

It's been six months.

Six months since Tana vanished...Norrix, Lord Boe, Lord Damon and I have sent out scouts to every part of the world for the last six months and we haven't gotten a single lead. It's like she no longer exists there's no trace or murmur of her that has been found anywhere. I don't know what to do anymore I don't speak to anyone anymore unless it's to talk about trying to find her, Raiju left about a month back with no explanation not that i blame him, I'd leave us to we are a miserable bunch to be around. Norrix is always furious and yelling he doesn't even go to the void anymore to see Celestia after the forth week Tana disappeared and she wouldn't help find her or give him an explanation. She's hiding something that I'm sure of but i just can't seem to find it in me to do something about it anymore. Beth was devastated about Tana and her family when we told her. The anguish she felt unleashed her dragon and she destroyed half the castle in the process. Now she spends all her time in the gym training and kicking ass or in her room. She doesn't speak anymore. If you look her in the eye all you see is dull dead eyes full of pain. I suspect if you looked into mine you'd find the same.

The only thing keeping me going is hope, hope that she is alive and will come back that and that my Dragon, Sephtis, says he still feels his mate and if she had died he wouldn't feel their bond though he couldn't sense that she was even on earth which puzzled us both. If she hadn't died but wasn't on earth, where was she? Was she in the Spirit Relem? If she was there's no way for me to get to her only the White Stag gave entrance and there's no way to contact him. And if she was there...why?

Sighing I stood up from my desk in the corner of Tana's room and ran a hand down my face. I was beyond tired but sleep has been a evasive bitch lately I only sleep once i can barely see straight and even then it's only a couple hours at that before I'm up obsessing over searching for her. I slowly made my way to her bed before ungracefully falling face first into the pillows. Her scent is long gone from this room but it's the only way i feel close to her anymore and it keeps me sane even if it's just barely doing it.

"Where are you Tana?" I mumbled as i let sleep take over.

"WAKE UP!" i heard someone yell right before i felt water being dumped on me, making me jump clear out of bed, i was pissed. I spun around ready to tear apart but my assault stalled when my eyes landed on her. There she was standing in front of me and boy was she mad. Her eyes narrowed, nose scrunched up, her lips pulled into a snarl and her hands fisted at her hips. my beautiful Tana. She was glowing like as if she wasn't really here but I'm most defiantly not dreaming.

"Tana?" I whispered before i gathered her up in my arms pressing my lips to hers as tears of relief and happiness slid down my face. She kissed me back with just as much emotion as me but she eventually pulled back.

"Ryder I'm so mad at all of you!" she said as she hit my shoulder before stepping out of my embrace against my protests. "I understand my disappearance was hard on all of you but you've abandoned each other...Fix it today." She seethed before looking done at her hands, "I'm okay just so you know...I'm safe with the White Stag...a..and my grandfather. I've been in the Spirit Relem grieving and mostly Training. I've been watching though and I'm not okay with what's been happening here. The supernatural world needs to think I'm dead which is why I can't return just yet but I need you to be better and i need you to make everyone better..." She trailed off at the end still watching her fingers pick at each other.

"You're not staying are you?" i whispered my voice cracking as i tilted her head up so she would look at me.

Her eyes were filled with unshed tears she shook her head, "I'm not even really here right now i'm being projected, i couldn't stand to watch you do this to yourself anymore, i had to stop it. I will return Ryder but not right now and you all need to be better than this."

More tears slipped out as i stared at her, "I don't know how to live without you anymore Tana...you're my other half. I...I feel empty without you." I lifted my hand cupping her cheek as i pressed my trembling lips to her forehead before laying my forehead against hers, "but i'll be better as long as i have to be till you come home." i whispered as i pulled her into my embrace not ready to let her go.

She pulled me closer, "You can tell Norrix and the Lords and of Course Beth that I'm alive but no one else must know and bring home the scouts don't declare me dead but don't stop the rumors either." She lifted her head looking me right in the eyes as she caressed my cheek, "I love you Ryder." she placed her lips on mine in a deep and longing kiss...a sob broke free from my throat as i felt her disappear leaving me there holding the air.

An Anguished roar left me as I sank down to the floor feeling like my heart was being ripped apart again but at the same time i felt a weight lift off my chest cause now i know she's safe and alive. My door flew open and panicked footsteps rushed over to me, "Ryder what happened?" Norrix asked frantically as he knelt down in front of me. I could feel that the others were in the doorway as well.

I looked up at Norrix with a sad smile all the while the tears still came and whispered, "She's alive."

He stared at me wide eyed opening and close his mouth, at a lose for words, "H...how do you k..know."

"She visited me, she's in the Spirit Relem I'm guessing the White Stag projected her here...and boy is she mad at us." i chuckled and sniffled as i got my tears under control.

"how do you know it wasn't just a dream?" Norrix asked quietly.

"I just do...she dumped water on me and yelled that's not how my dreams of her go." i snapped my chest still hurt so i looked down and saw a dim glimmering light coming out of my shirt, i pulled it down to see a white glowing outline of Tana's dragon, "and there's this." i said glancing up to Norrix and everyone else as they crowded around.

"Why is she mad at us?" Beth asked while she chewed on her nails.

"She said we abandoned each other, She'll be back but we need to be better then we are right now till then and we need to bring the scouts home. No one must know she's alive, we are to keep quiet don't declare her dead but do nothing to stop the rumors from spreading." i said was i stood up. "It kills me to not have her here but she's right...we need to be better than what have been we need to be prepared for her return." With that said everyone was in agreement, how we have been was disgraceful we have to move on and be stronger than ever before.

'You have my word Tana I'll make this better' I whispered down our mate bond having no idea if she could even hear me.

'I know...' i heard in response but nothing else. But it was enough...