3 months, 3 months have passed... I gained my memory back and I'm very mad that I did something like that. I'm very mad that I did everything to keep my happiness without knowing that I'm taking too much and I haven't left anything for Jennie. I've gained my memory back and completely know what happened already. Every happy memories that I had with Jennie... if I'm about to reminisce it I actually had a very happy and healthy relationship with Jennie. We were so contented about each other that we actually live our lives like a normal but happy one. Even if we're too tired from school and work we always end up cuddling in the middle of the night either on our bed our our couch watching random netflix shows and we're already happy about that. Jennie was a great girlfriend even before.. she will always have that matured mind between the both of us that even if she's not the one at fault she'll always step up and apologize to me just so we can stop our fight. Jennie has always been the type of girlfriend who's very savage but sweet at the same time. She doesn't really like it when we're all sappy and sweet in public cause she acts so stuff around other people but when we're home all she wanted to do was to be babied and I'm not even complaining. She will always make time for me... I'll probably label myself as a sweet girlfriend but I can also say that Jennie is way way better than I am. I can say millions of good things about her as an individual, as my bestfriend and as my girlfriend. Now I can still say millions of good things about her even if we're no where in between bestfriend and girlfriend. Out of my selfishness I lost a bestfriend and a girlfriend.
It's been 3 months, Jennie and Ella they went to america just to be far from me. I totally understand Jennie... cause i even hate myself now. I dont deserve Jennie... I thought Jennie was the one who hurts me a lot on our relationship but it turns out I was the one who burried a deep cut on her.
It's been 3 months, I went back to Thailand with my mom. I no longer work as a doctor and I stick with photography while I poured every savings for my mom's new business.
A lot of photographers asked me why am I having a lot of black and white pictures as my theme... cause i took the happiness away from my whole life. I was the reason why the very vibrant colors inside my world left me.. I was the reason why she left and I know for sure that she did the best decision.
I love Jennie already... very much but the time I decided to love her back was also the time that she'll come to hate for something that I did out of immaturity.
Seulgi and Irene are still together... Seulgi and Jisoo was very disappointed towards me but they're still my friends. They told me I did something very wrong but doesn't mean they'll also cut ties with me.... I feel like I dont even deserve any love and support from everyone after everything I've done but they're still there for me.
Jackson, Bambam, Chaeyoung and Eunwoo stayed at korea to continue working as a doctor but they're still calling me whenever they have the time.
Id be lying if I'll say that I'm completely healed by now... cause I still cry everynight for the mistake I've done. I wanted to say sorry to Jennie so bad but that won't even bring her sister back to life. That won't erase what I've done so the best thing I can do now is to step out of Jennie's way and le her live her life without me... cause she deserves someone better. She desserves to be happy without any consequences.
I have learned so much. I have learned that the person who you thought would be the one for you wasn't really the one. The person who makes you happy wasn't really the one who'll make you happy for the rest of your life. We sometimes ruin a healthy relationship for our own satisfaction. The one who you thought gave you so much pain was actually the one who get a lot more pain.
I thought I was the clean one when I saw her having fun with Song that time but it's just that.. i dont know myself completely that time. I didn't know i should be the one to be ashamed of myself.
I think you wont always end up with someone you want cause you weren't as compatible as you thought you would be. Sometimes we just crave for a lot more than what we already have... we don't get contented on the relationship we already have.. we're not contented with the love that we're receiving that we're already being so selfish and needy towards the other person. The one i thought was a small thing back then can actually ruin something and worst was that it took a life that could've been saved.
If I didn't ruin Jennie's research paper we could've been together by now. She didn't want to break up with me just cause she wanted to.. she told me we'll just go back together once I graduated and everything's settled down but I didnt listen and I'm so wrong with that.
A little mistake can ruin a lot more thing than what we actually picture it to be.. a little mistake can take the happiness from you.
Mistakes can end things within something you want to last for a lifetime.
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