Falling Into The Deep End

Charpter 15

Four years later

I regret the moment I left. I missed them every single day. I miss him every single day.

Me and my Fiancé, Ryan, arrive at the movie release after party at a restaurant. This is my first movie; I should be excited but I'm not. Ryan is also my love interest in the movie. He is everything Nathan was not. He is abusive and mean. He is what I deserve after what I did. I thought I did the right thing and I still do but it does not make me less of a monster. I hurt everyone.

Thinking, I look at my tattoo's. I have one for everyone:

the heart for Amber as the handshake we had growing up had a heart.

the rose is for Noah as it reminds me of the nickname, he gave me, and the roman numerals are his birthday. 

The N behind my ear is for Nathan

The Aries symbol is me and Nathans star sign

  The dance lettering for Oliver

the words' Be you ' for Andrew reminding me of a conversation we once had that changed a lot for me.

And the LGTBQ flag for Charlie: I hope he came out now.

I go in with Ryan's arm around my waist. As I walk in to meet the rest of the cast, producers, directors and whatnot. I feel someone staring at me. I look up to see who it is, and it happens to be four sets of eyes, four sets of eyes I thought I would never see again. All filled with rage and shock, probably, with the way I look. My body filled with tattoos and piercings. My clothes are revealing going with the bad girl image I have maintained. Well, their probably surprised to see me.

"Shit" I say quietly, and Ryan hears

"Babe, no swearing" Ryan says with those scary eyes and then goes to pinch my waist, hard.

I wince in pain and hope no one notices

I turn around and put my arms around his neck

"I am sorry, I just need the toilet bad. Ill come back to you once I'm done. You need to go talk to everyone. Okay?" I say sweetly

"Agh, fine go" he says, meanly

I give him a peck on the lips

Once I make sure he's gone, I march up to Nathan, Noah, Andrew and Oliver.

"Out. Now" I say once I reach them and turn around knowing they'll follow.

Once we are outside where no is around. I go sit on a bench, bring my legs up to my chest and wrap my arms around them. I look up at them and their eyes are full of curiosity and a slight bit of concern.

I sigh

"What happened to you? Where did my sister go? How did this happen? Who the hell was that asshole who is clearly not a good person?" Noah asks his full of disbelief

"Around here, I'm not related to anyone of you" I snap

Hurt fills their faces

"Look, I am so sorry for running away like I did, I mean, come on guys I was sixteen. I made a lot of mistakes. There's a lot of stuff you guys have no clue about, I told Nathan a tiny bit of it which I'm sure he's told you about now. I'm not ready to tell anything to you now. This is my life now whether I like it or not. I made a lot of mistakes, but I don't regret leaving. What I do regret is shitty reputation I have, I hate it. Things would not have gone the way I wanted them too. You know, Mum and Dad were going to make me have a arrange marriage. I wasn't going to do that. You have no idea how much I missed you guys, but I have a new life and that guy is my fiancé also I know he's an asshole" I say, angry

"I missed you too" Andrew says quietly knowing I needed to calm down

I stood up and walked up to him then wrapped my arms around him tightly. I missed my cousin. I look at Oliver with my arms wide open. He sighs then comes and hugs me. He looks pointedly at the tattoo behind my ear and I roll my eyes.

"Here comes the hard part" I mutter

I turn and walk toward my older brother. He looks up and just stares at me

"Come on. Give me a hug" I groan

He chuckles but wraps his arms around me

I really want Ryan and the boys to not talk. Suddenly, I get an idea:

"Ryan's not my fiancé" I whisper into Noah's ear as I pull back

"But what about the ring on your finger and the way he was acting in restaurant" he says loud enough, everyone hears.

"Everyone thinks we are engaged but in actuality it's only a publicity stunt. It's super private that not even the casts know because the publicists don't want any leaked information hence, we were acting the way we were. None of you know this information. As for the ring, just because I'm not engaged to Ryan doesn't mean I am not engaged at all. My fiancé is also a cast member, he plays my best friend on the show and you guys will really like him. His name is Daniel" once I am done talking, I look at everyone's faces, and they are filled with shock.

I laugh and roll my eyes

"After this fucking party, we'll go to my place and I can introduce you to Daniel. Noah, come with me so I can finally introduce people to my mysterious brother and the rest I don't know you" I say as I drag Noah inside

Once we're inside, I release Noah's hand and shout:

"HEY GUYS!!"

"LOOK IT'S THE PARTY QUEEN" Daniel shouts back

Daniel in real, is only my best friend.

Everyone starts whooping and whistling

"Guys, this is my brother Noah" I say a little less loud now that I have everyone's attention

I turn around to look at Noah but as I do someone wraps their arms around me and when i turn round to look at Ryan he immediately starts kissing me in a sloppy way. Just as I'm about to playing along someone clears their throat. Ryan releases me but then goes to put his hand on my butt, Noah takes note of that.

"Ryan, this is my brother, Noah and Noah, this is my fiancé Ryan" I say as they shake hands and I notice the hard look on Noah's face. He's still overprotective.

I'm about to excuse myself as Dan, our director heads our way.

"What a small world! Who would have thought my friend, Noah here is my main characters older brother" He says and then starts having a conversation with the guys

I speed towards Daniel well aware of four particular eyes staring at us

"I need your help" I say and he drags me out

He wraps an arm around my shoulder. Daniel is only one aware of my past.

"The're back. He's back. I mean like now that they saw me, they know where I am. They don't like Ryan, so I told them that being engaged to Ryan is publicity stunt and that your my actual fiancé. I told them they come back to my place and meet you then. Please act like my fiancé in front of them" I say

Daniel sighs but says:

"Okay"

Author's Note:

Hey guys,

This is an extremely long chapter compared to the other ones I have written. How do you think this is going to go? To be honest I have no idea what I am going to do next.

Love you,

G xx

Song: Lose you to love me by Selena Gomez