As the water follows the moon

11 (English version)

What if love isn't only about

And if love isn't only about
Two people involved with themselves?

Catarina had always known that Teddy Reily would change her life but she couldn't guess how much this change might be. Two years passed since they have parted and he has left - and she couldn't recognize herself. Now she was a different person.

Teddy's example, who devoted all his life to God's service, stayed before her eyes, and Catarina has also wanted to do something useful not only for herself. Her way to religion and relations with God were too complicated because of many different circumstances and that is why the girl decided at first to try herself in another field. Having reflected upon her future for some time, she dropped her scientific activity at the university and went into charity. It was not easy but she liked helping people who were sick and in need. She dreamed about it when she was a child, imagining herself an adult. Then these dreams grew dim and only after many years Catarina understood that she's become not the person she'd always wanted to be. It turned out that Teddy returned her on her true path.

She often thought if he understood what an influence he had on other people. Born as a leader, he has always led people after him – his brothers and sisters, his fans. Catarina also dreamed of coming after Teddy wherever this way would lead. Observing him she didn't notice that she was becoming a better person herself.

She didn't blame him any more for parting with her because of his belief. She saw that he has found himself. She wished she could do the same! And it seemed to her that it was happening already.

Catarina thought she would never see Teddy again but suddenly it happened.

With her charity organization she was in Slovenia participating in a festival. There was a concert where bands, playing Christianian music, performed and she really enjoyed it. Suddenly there on the stage came the one of whom she was thinking more often than of anybody else. She had to take a very deep breathe to look at him once again.

When she saw Teddy - skinny, very short-haired, wearing a grey monk habit but still warming everyone around him with the light of his smile, Catarina decided that her eyes lied to her. She even started pinching herself to make sure she was not dreaming and everything was for real. And once she believed it, she felt very uneasy.

It was him, he was singing again and his voice sounded better then ever. Listening to him she found out how much pain was kept there in her soul waiting to be released and the moment came.

Only then she understood how calm and tranquil her life was without this man. Her heart was at peace but now it began beating with an accountable anxiety again and she had to run away before Teddy stopped his performance.

Having hid herself in a trailer, the girl burst into tears. She hasn't let her tears and feelings out for a long time but now she just couldn't stop. It seemed to her that she had finally found peace and happiness, but she was so mistaken! As it turned out, her love hasn't died. All this time it kept living quietly deep in her soul. And now she sobbed, cursing herself for loving a monk – someone who shouldn't be loved at all the way she loved. He took a vow of purity, that is why she could not even dare to defile him with these thoughts...

In the evening Catarina got all her courage and went to the confession – for the first time since long ago. And the next day after a sleepless night, full of endless and torturing reflections about Teddy, she understood that there was only one way to get closer to him. She had to get closer to God, whom he loved so much.