Has this story gotten boring?
The ceiling fades and I feel like this is it. I'm dying, from what? Sadness, hunger, and blood loss.
I'm probably not really dying but I feel like I am. I'm on my back with this towel on me. It got untied but it still covers me. My door opens and I look at it to see Oli is back. He didn't leave for good?
He's holding a lot of stuff. He put it down and grabs a bottle of something. I close my eyes letting him do whatever. He grabs my limp arm and wipes it with a wet paper towel. The liquid stings but I dont care. I deserve it.
He does this to both of my arms and then wraps them in gauls tape. He then moves my towel so he can fix my thighs too. When he's done he leaves for a moment and I hear my drawers open and close.
He dresses me in briefs and a long sleeved shirt. "When was the last time you ate?" He asks. It's been two full days but it's already 5pm so pretty but three days. Not wanting to admit to this I shrug.
"Eat this," he says getting out a bacon egg and cheese sandwich. It looks good but I doubt I could eat it all without throwing up. I take it and he watches me until I put it down. It's not even half finished but I'm full and I'll throw up if I eat more.
"Eat it all," he says looking at me unimpressed.
"Later, I'll be sick if I eat more," I mumble and he frowns. He's not happy at all.
"I'm sorry.. I'm a really bad person to be around..." I mumble and he shakes his head.
"Kellin, you're not a bad person but you have to stop cutting and you have to eat daily and more than just once a day," he says and sits next to me.
"Can we stop talking and just lay together?" I ask and he smiles but it doesn't reach his eyes.
"Yeah.." he says and we do just that.
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Oli left last night and I slept all night. Now its morning. I slowly go into my kitchen and get a pop tart. I should try to eat something so I dont faint.
While I eat I look at all my texts.
Oli: are you okay? Want me to come get you later
Oli: I guess you went to sleep when you got home. If you want I could get you Saturday night
Oli: your worrying me, you never ignore me
Oli: answer me
Oli: answer my calls
Oli: kellin pick up the fucking phone
Oli: are you okay?
Oli: just text me back so I know I'm worrying for no reason
Oli: neither matty or Vic have heard for you, why?
Oli: answer my calls
35 missed calls from oli.. I feel bad for worrying him. He doesn't usually worry or care about stuff so it makes me feel worst.
Matty: hey man u ok?
Matty: Oli's REALLY worried about you
Matty is a good friend but he's not to close. He doesn't really care about me too much.
Me: yeah I'm fine
I message Matty back and then go to vic's messages.
Vic: what's up darling
Vic: text me when you feel like talking to me
Vic: maybe you lost your phone
Vic: I'll see you at church;p
Vic: you weren't at church.. are you okay?
Vic: Goodnight
Vic: good morning?
Me: sorry I got my phone taken, I'm sorry. I didn't feel good so I didn't go to church.. How are you?
Vic: oh that's okay, I thought you regretted being my boyfriend
Me: no I dont, I still feel sick but do you want to go to the movies or something today?
Vic: yeah I'll pick you up at 5?
Me: okay
I get on tiktok and see I have a new follow. I click on their profile and my heart stops. Oh my god. How did Oliver find my account!?
He's liked a few of my singing videos. He has a few videos posted all showing off his tattoos and body. I got on tiktok to do a livestream. I cant be myself on the live if Oliver's watching.
I look in the mirror and pout. I dressed up so I can do this live. I'm weak all black except for my rainbow suspenders, socks, and bow.
Well I cant just never do a live..
I click the button to go live and set up the camera so I'm in a good view. A few people join, none of them Oliver. Good.
"Hey nobody comment about my friend or crush," I say quickly.
Awee whyy?
"Because he just followed me on tiktok," I say and watch to make sure he doesn't join the live.
Okayy we got you
All of my followers like me. Oli joins and I blush. I'm wearing silly stuff.
Do a make up tutorial
Omg yes
Please
They comment and I roll my eyes. Oli doesn't know I wear makeup sometimes for videos. I wonder how far he's watched.
Oli: Interesting
Oliver comments that? Interesting?? What does that mean? "Makeup.. um, what kind?" I ask thinking about it.
The kind last makeup live
"Fine," I get up and go pull out my makeup box from underneath my bed and bring it back to my desk that has a mirror on it. I sit down in view of the phone.
"Yeah so most of you are regulars on my lives but Oli.. I see you. If you make fun of me I'll bite you," I say getting out my makeup from the box.
Oli: oh no, not again.. I think your boyfriend wont like your mouth on other guys
I glare at my phone.
Omg you have a boyfriend?
Is this the friend?
Your so cute
Can I get your number?
People start commenting. I put my hair in a ponytail so it wont be in my way.
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Fanfiction"Oh he's depressed dont be his friend of he'll just bum you out," Kellin hears stuff like this daily and he tries to block out all the sadness. kellic and koli
