dream in color, dress In black

25

Can we all agree andy is the hottest guy in the world?

In this position I pout.

He cant see my face but that doesn't stop me. I cross my arms. The room is quite for a moment as Oli holds on to me.

I turn around so I'm facing him. He looks at my unhappy face. "I need a distraction," I say wanted him to let me go so I can go cut.

He picks me up again and does the exact same thing as last time. Takes me to the bed and lays on me. His arms wrapped around me and he's a bit higher than before.

I let him lay on me, this is comfortable.. "I've cried so much the past week," I state wiping drying tears away.

"Talk to me. Why have you been upset?" He says and I bite my bottom lip.

"I keep feeling used and like my life isnt as good as it could be. My parents screaming just gets to me and Vic doesn't like it if I try to talk to him about my personal issues. Then my mom is mad at me, my dad- you know.. and vic is cheating on me. You're hugs mean more than anything from vic. It's just so complicated. And ever since vic told everyone I was gay people have been calling me names and telling me to cut or kill myself and.. I want to," I say and Oliver is now looking at me.

"Tomorrow you're going to point out the people that call you names to me. Dont worry about your parents for now.. they are both so wrong. I'll handle vic at school tomorrow. Just try to relax. Dont listen to those people, I want you alive, happy, and not hurting so listen to me over those assholes," he says looking me in the eyes.

I'm getting better at holding eye contact with Oli. Nobody else but I trust Oliver and his eyes are so pretty. "Wait! What time is it?" I says struggling to get out of his grip. He holds on tighter.

I look at his clock I forgot he has on his wall. 20 minutes until church is over. I gasp, "get off Oliver," I say and he looks at me confused.

"No I'm protecting you. Stop wiggling around," he says but I squirm around move. I straighten my legs trying to push myself up and out of his grip. He grabs my leg and holds it up so I can do it again.

The other way? I try to wiggle down and escape but his grip tightens. One hand is on my hip. "Oli," I mumble out trying to get out of his grip.

"Please stop squirming kells," he says kind of breathlessly. "No, let me go," I say trying to scoot up again. His grip tightens more and he rests his face really close to my neck. I can feel his to breathe on my skin.

In the middle of struggling I feel something that stop me. Oliver is hard.. "I told you to stop," he mumbles against my neck. I didn't realize it but the whole time I was struggling I was pretty much rubbing our crotches together.

His hard dick presses against me and I swallow hard. I made my bestfriend hard.. "Oh," I say blushing.

"Yeah.. but uh, why do you want up? To hurt yourself?" He says still holding on to me.

"N-no, I'm um, I have to go to church and tell the preacher something," I say shyly. He grumbles against my neck.

"Promise your not lying?" He says. I am half lying..

"Yeah I do," I say not actually promising anything. His grip loosens.

"I'm only letting you go because I'm sure this is uncomfortable," he says talking about his dick that's pressed against my own. I get off the bed and go into his closet.

I block out the fact I just made him have a boner and grab sweatpants. His jeans are too long for me. So are these but I roll the waist down and pull them up so they fit.

He puts on a jacket and my eyes go to his bulge. He's big- "pervert," he says and my face goes red and I see he's looking at me.

"I- uh, um- sorry," I say embarrassed.

He laughs at me and I look away. I'm in the closet and he's blocking my way out. "Its okay, come on let's go," he says walking out. I follow.

"Your taking me to church with a bo-" I stop myself not wanting to say boner out loud.

"Yes my boner will go away kells," he says and I blush more.

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The car ride was pretty quiet. Surprisingly not too awkward, I was thinking about what exactly I'm about to do.  When we pull up I look at Oli then the church.

Oli doesn't know Vic goes here. "Stay in here? I'm only going to be a minute," I ask not wanting Oliver to interfere. He nods and I leave the car. Church is letting out right now and people one by one are coming out.

Vic come out and smiles when he sees me. Great I'm doing this in Oliver's view. Vic tries to kiss me but I take a step back. He takes notice of my unhappy expression.

"You're cheating on me?" I say bitterly. He makes a 'yikes' face confirming it.

"Sorr-" he starts but my fist cuts him off. I punch him in the jaw as hard as I possibly can. He falls on his ass and touches his face.

"Its fun to watch you throw the first punch," he says and tears brim to my eyes.

"You are a fucking horrible boyfriend, we are done!" I yell and he smirks.

"Speak slow, I don't wanna miss when you cry," he says. He likes it when I'm upset. He thinks im cute when im upset. He likes that I hate myself..

"I deserve so much better than you," I say and he frowns.

"Fuck you and your new love for yourself. It dont mean shit," he says and I see people are watching with wide eyes.

"I think your mouth should be quiet 'cause it never tells the truth," I say and take a step back, I made quite a scene..

With that I storm away and get back into Oliver's car. He's looking at me with a smirk.