Encountering Min Yoongi (Wattys 2020)

Encounter 1

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For a thousand times, I wiped
my tears streaming down my cheeks, sobing and silently hurting. Ang hirap pala talagang pilitin ang paghikbi para lang hindi makita at marinig ng iba. Ang hirap mag-panggap na okay lang ang lahat kahit alam ko sa sarili kong hindi naman talaga ako maayos.

Ang hirap magpanggap.

Sobrang sakit ng nakikita ko, Arturo's having an affair with Laila's bestfriend.
I thought they're strong but then Arturo chose to cheat with her loving girlfriend. Gusto kong magalit, gusto kong sampalin ng paulit ulit si Arturo para marealize nyang mali sya , para magising sya sa katotohanan.

I got back to my senses when Mendy handed me her floral style handkerchief.

"Punasan mo nga yang luha mo Ren Berroya, ang pangit mo pa naman kapag umiiyak" Bulong nito sa'kin sapat na marinig ko. Lihim akong umirap, kailangan ba talagang bigkasin ang buong pangalan ko?

Aba! Hoy exotic na kaya ang beauty ko!

"Wow ah, nagsalita ang beauty queen" sarkastiko kong saad sakanya at dahan dahang pinunas sa luha kong tuloy padin sa pagagos, hindi ako nakuntento at siningahan ko pa, hindi narin kasi ako makahinga dahil sa sipon eh.

"What the heck!" Biglang sigaw ni Medz na nagpatawa lan sa'kin.

"Shhhhhhhh!" Napatahimik nalang kaming dalawa dahil nakalimutan naming nasa sinehan parin pala kami at hindi pa tapos sa pinapanood.

Nagpeace sign nalang ako sakanila at binelatan si Mendy na inirapan ako at nagpatuloy na sa panood.

Mendy is one of my trusted friends, she's my college bestfriend at hanggang ngayon magkasama parin kami ng loka-loka.

 
In my twenty four years of existence, hindi parin natatapos ang luha ko sa tuwing nanonood ako ng drama.

In my twenty four years of my existence may mga tao paring hindi alam na nag-e-exist ako.

And I must say that in my twenty years of my existence,  I'm happily in a in love with my childhood and boyfriend Angelo.

Actually, malapit na ang second anniversary naming dalawa at hindi ako makapaghintay. I don't know but after all the years we've been through, I'm still inlove with him, and I know he feels the same too.

We're currently watching our favorite movie here at mall, showing na kasi at talagang inaabangan namin, kaya gora na talaga kami ng loka loka nang malaman palang namin.

"Bakit kaya hindi ko sya ma-contact?" Muli kong ni-dial ang number ni Angelo pero mukhang nakapatay ang phone nya.

"Oh, uminom ka muna, kanina ka pa d'yan dutdot-ng-dutdot sa phone mo". Rinig kong sabi ni Mendy, pagkalabas palang kasi namin sa sinehan ay tinatawagan ko na si Angelo, but his phone can't be reach.

But I'm not worried, I know he's not doing something that he might regret later or worse he can lose me. I trust him that much.

Ganun naman talaga diba? Kapag mahal mo ang isang tao dapat pinagkakatiwalaan natin.

Because love is not just love, we should respect and trust our partner. And that's why we've been dating for almost two years, we just don't love and respect each other, but we trust each other.

I surrendered and just put down my phone and started sipping my coffee.

Kahit ang kaibigan naming si Elise ay hindi rin sumasagot sa mga tawag namin.

Elise, Medz and I are bestfriends since college, they're like sisters to me.
And I really trust them just like how much I trust my boyfriend.

"Hmm. Ang sarap talaga pag libre" I giggled at Mendy.