Now im living

23. Family

Spov

"you named her after.." "cammie, yeah" i felt tears streaming down. "don't cry." "i can't help it." i look at my daughter, she has my eyes like her brother, but blonde. "you're gorgeous aren't you." i coo, she just looks at me straight in the eyes. "you're not so social like your brother are you." she touches my face. "she does that." "i can tell" we laugh. i hug cam. i look at cari and behind her i see cammie, smiling. cari looks around and looks at me confused. "it's cammie isn't it." i nod. i sit down and look at cari with aiden he's just looking off. i place cam on my lap and tickle her a little making her laugh. then i feel dizzy and doze off...

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i hear cries.. tiny ones.. "shan.." "mmm" i look up and see cam on a hospital bed and beside her a crib....

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"shan" i open my eyes and see cari worried. "what." "you fainted." she says i look at my lap. "where's cam." "with her brother" i smile at cari she's looking around. "what is it." she says sitting next to me. "i remember." i let a tear drop. "remember what." i hug cari. she hesitates a little but hugs me back. "i remember when sam was born." she pulls away. she has a serious face. "you didn't remember." i shake my head. "i'm glad that you do now." she smiles. "i have to get going. i have to take sam to one of her friend house." i stand up. "do you even know where joanna lives." "jo?" "no her friend.. the only one she has" that hurt was sam? "she only has one?" she nods. "i'm pretty sure jo has a lil crush on sam." we laugh. "then i have to see my future daughter-in-law" i go to where cari went for the twins. i see them both playing with their fingers. i chuckle and pick aiden up. "hey handsome." he smiles. "i'm leaving but i'll see you tomorrow." i give him a kiss and put him back in his crib. as i'm picking cam up i hear beanging at the door. i put her down and go to the living room. "go with the kids." i tell cari and does what i say. i look everywhere for the remote again. i find it and take it to cari. "press it once i come to the room, okay." i tell her she looks really scared. the banging at the door comes again and harder. as i stand up i hear voices outside. "CARI FLETCHER!! OPEN THIS DAMN DOOR!!"

amy's voice was heard and we sigh in relief. i open the door. and see all of the gays here and danny. "SHANNON!!" they all yell and hug me. we all fall inside and hear cari laugh. amy goes to her and punches her arm. "what was that for!" "for not telling me you had a kid with coo-coo here and for not seeing each other for over a year." we laugh as we stand up. "tell her over there." she points at me. "i didn't say anything. i said be careful with who sees you." "fair enough." everyone comes in and starts doing whatever they want. i go back into the room and say goodbye to aiden and camden. i see sam and alyssa talking to cari and hear my phone. "hello." "shannon." "hey stevie what happend." "tell me you took sam with you." "no, she was sleeping when i left." "my god." "where is sammie, stevie." "i don't know she doesn't talk to us she always goes with cari but alyssa told me she came here looking for jo." "her friend?" "yeah." "alyssa is here with sam but i didn't know they had a kid." "they adopted one." that makes sense since sam is pregnant. "i'll find them. is jim there at least." "yeah he's with ally and papi" thank god. "okay i'll go to the house in a few." "okay" i hang up and go to them. "hey guys." "shannon, hey." "shan, sam and alyssa are jo's parents." "i know stevie just told me. i think jo is with sam but i don't know where but i have to go to and find them." "i'll go with you." alyssa says. "okay let's go." we head out. we get in my car. 'cam where are they.' i try talking to cam but she isn't with me. well shit.

Sampov

"sam!! wait" jo keeps calling for me but i keep running. i run like there's no tomorrow until i reach the street. i cross the street and look for it. by the time i find her jo catches up. i look at moms tomb. i sit in front of it. "sam, i'm gonna get in trouble." "you ran with me i just came here." "yeah cuz my best friend ran by my house to come see her mom that's dead." "you, don't understand." "i do." ... "i miss her." "i know but we can't be here we're gonna get in trouble." "i don't care." "well i do. i bet no one knows where you are." "shut up." i look back to where mom is. i can't see her. i haven't seen her for a while. i know mom does cuz she knows where i'm at all the time. i took her tracking things off. it was on my bracelet. i want to see mom again i need someone to talk to. "if you need to talk to someone, you have a family that can listen." i look at her and back to mom. "it's not the same." "how. everyone wants to know how you feel." "you don't get it." "i-" i don't let her finish. "you don't! you were left by your parents so you wouldn't understand how i feel." she looks at my with sad eyes.