Now im living

8. Dreams, Drinks and Break Ups

Cpov

When shannon and I went to bed it was quiet she fell asleep quickly, but five minutes wile I was trying to go to sleep i heard shannon mumble and while she was mumbling i heard her say "i love you cari " i widened my eyes as she says that but i smile. i didn't know she felt that way i turned around so i could face her. i hugged her and said "i love you too shan" i kissed her head and drifted asleep.

---------------next morning --------------

i wake up and i feel shannon hugging me really tight and she's talking in her sleep i think it's a little funny until i understand what she's saying in her sleep "please... don't leave" i stare at her confused and i hear her talk again. "please...i promise...but don't leave". she says and i wake her up cause i'm getting a little concerned "shan wake up" she doesn't so i start to shake her a little bit " babe wake up...shan wake up it's just a dream" with that she wakes up and sits on the edge of the bed and i hear her sniffle and go sit next to her. she's just staring at the floor until i pick her head up and i see her in tears and i hug her. she hugged me back and we pulled away from the hug and i decided to break the silence " what were you dreaming about" she stays quiet "if you don't want to answer it's fi.." shannon cuts me off "it was the day we broke up" she said and i'm a little confused "who did you break up with " i asked and she looked a little confused like if i was supposed to know about it "she didn't tell you? "she asked me and i'm still tying to figure it out " who? " "cammie and i were together before you were in my life..."

-------------flashback to cammie and Shannon's break up------------- Spov

I was leaving a party and my phone died like an hour or two? i honestly don't know. all i know it's that it's late and i need to head home. I will admit that i drank a little to much and my vision is really blurry so u decide to go walking cause i don't wanna die in a car accident.

-----one hour of walking later-----

i get to my apartment and i was struggling to open the door my vision is shit. i finally manage to open the door. cammie was sitting on the couch and she looked pissed. when i get inside i walk towards her and start talking. "hey ba..." cammie cuts me of " save it i don't want to hear anything!! its four in the morning and i've been worried sick I didn't know if you were ok and you don't even answer you fucking phone!!! " at this point she's crying and i get closer and try to give her a hug but she walks away " babe i'm really sorry i was so caught up with my friend that i di..." "save it shannon it's the third time this month that you've done this!! you know what just forget it, you don't care, if you've done this before and obviously don't even care. just sleep on the couch i don't want to see you right now. well guess i'm sleeping here.

--------the next morning--------

i wake up with a huge headache and i stand up and go to the kitchen for some painkillers. when i go to the room to go and take a shower i see cammie putting her stuff in boxes and i stay a little confused until i realize whats happening "cam what are you doing" is say with my voice cracking a little and tears starting to form in my eyes she turns around and says" shan i can't do this any more you know this isn't working out i wanted to talk to you when you woke up but i started packing so i wouldn't have to come back and make things harder." at this point were both crying " cam please we can talk about this but please... don't leave". i tell her while i get closer to her " shan this isn't working and you now it and plus i can't keep worrying for stupid reasons like last night " "please cam if it's because of that i wont do it again i promise but please don't leave me i beg you " "shannon its not only because of that plus i have to figure out my life right now. this is to much for me " cammie explains . well i guess she's right "okay cam if this is what you want then i will respect your decision" "thank shan i never wanted this to happen but what we had and the time we were together you were the best thing that has ever happened to me " she says and we share a hug " just know that i will always love you and that you will always be a huge part of my life."