dear j,
if i could take back all i've done to hurt you,
i would.
i'm sorry.
for picking a stupid boy over you.
over my best friend.
and it kills me now, that i have to live with my own choices and watch you be happy without me.
knowing that i can never go to you again when i'm crying,
never share my joy with you,
never obsess over tom holland with you,
never again.
all i have are the memories of us.
"i am in pieces."
-jennifer niven, all the bright places.
