Truth

Poppin'

"Shawty, Shawty, the way you wearing that top got them boys so hot ain't no mistaking playing you got me open and waiting and Poppin..." The year was 2006; I was 17 the girls in the studio were super fine and I was getting super turned on- in the past two years I went from cute boy on the fringes of fame to one of the biggest R&B/Popstars of the year; young, fresh, innocent - the boy next door.  At that time I could be Christopher; "Chris" didn't fully exist - Bhris was a very well concealed side that only creeped out slightly when someone tried to mess with my mama.

I had seen Robyn at the Vibe awards her accent was new- she was from some island or something; exotic with hypnotic green eyes, she was also nice - I wanted to see her again....

I jumped out of my flashback when Jai woke up; her big brown eyes looking into me- "What time is it?"

I flashed her a warm smile "It's only 6;30 baby- we're going to be home in about thirty minutes"

She gave a little nod and slowly  erected her body; her vibe was peaceful she looked deeply satisfied - my eyes gently trailed her body she was 100 % natural from head to toe - I knew that she could get a little insecure about her looks she wasn't exotical; or plastically stunning and in this industry that seemed to be the standard, she was average but definitely not unattractive her features fit her perfectly right down to the button nose. Her body was curvaceous and jiggled in some places (not that I minded) She was the fresh-faced girl next door probably the kind of girl that I would have dated in high school if I wasn't so shallow and full of myself. 

After being with enough exotic looking, surgically enhanced, model-thin girls, there was something deeply refreshing about being with a girl who had a level of depth that was beyond her looks- Karruche had been pleasant but not deep, she came with great loyalty and many more agendas. Jai had no agendas she wanted nothing from me but good treatment and loyal love; she didn't have a desire to read through my phones seeking to find out who"  This  hoe is Chris!" it was as if she accepted that cheating may occur and wasn't going to fret herself about it somehow I knew that if I ever did cheat she'd be gone without a word. 

" Is there something on my face?" 

" Nah babyface, I was just taking you all in"

"Ah, I'm just average Chris"

Although that thought had crossed my mind hearing her say it out loud didn't feel right; Jai was more than average a solid 8, I internally slapped myself for being so superficial still. She was a very pretty girl and I knew with the right make-up, stylist and hairdresser she would go from kitten to vixen. I felt protective again- no I didn't want her to be a vixen; although Jai was technically Hollywood through her career I knew that she had still been shielded from the uglier side of entertainment and I wasn't about to release her into that depraved world. Falling in was far easier than crawling back out.

" You're far from just average you're real and extremely attractive"

Her voice was low and surprisingly cynical

" Chris, I might be many things but extremely attractive isn't one of them, I'm the aite girl the one that you'd consider a date with if you can't get with that sexy exotical chick who's Spanish mixed with Ethiopian and you're too sober for the knock off Blac Chyna's that know how to ride; I'm safe, I'm comfortable even motherly but definitely not extremely attractive. You and I both know that you're more turned on by exotic looking girls."

She surprised me a bit with the high accuracy of her reading; well up to a point I was extremely turned on by Jai maybe it was her virginity or her curves but she had me on edge almost every day. There was definitely something sexy about her and I knew that she just hadn't tapped into that yet.

"You think that you don't turn me on Jai?"

Her voice was low once more but far timider: " well, you've dated freaking Rihanna and Karruche all the girls that you've been with are like super pretty. I'm just ...there I know that you like me and that you're really into me but sometimes I think we'll just end up being good friends and I don't know if I want that."

At this point I fully understood her, the poor girl was intimidated even though she had no need to be. I took her hand and stroked it along my very hard member - her face was a mixture of arousal and genuine shock before she pulled her hand back blushing wildly

"I have been hard or near to hard all-day and that's because I have been watching you for the whole day; I love the way that you giggle, that arch in your back, the way your behind just sways. Your thick thighs, delicious breasts - warm smile; that cute nose. Your smell, your voice. Yes I dated those girls but you turn me on in ways they never have; I'm just respecting your wishes Jai. No sex."

The size of his bulge stunned me; I didn't know much about guys and their penises but I knew that he had to be aroused for a long time for it to be that large and stiff. Truthfully I had begun to question my stance on no sex; me and Chris had developed a genuine bond and I knew that even marriages could come to an end.

"C-chris I'm ready to umm -  to have sex!"