"You don't let go of your fears very well, learn to let go".
I've the kind of memory where I remember the expression on someone's face from when they talked to me five years ago.
I've the kind of heart where it remembers the feeling in someone else's soul when they talked to me those five years ago.
I try to forget, but my amnesia is a dementor.
It only takes away whatever feels good.
I remember accidents, bad decisions and heartbreaks
Like, yesterday.
With the details like,
the colour of their T-shirt,
The angle of the arch of their deceptive smiles,
I remember them like I would remember a significant person.
I remember them like, the back of my hand except,
I know them better than the back of my hand.
I don't know if this mechanism is
Self-protection or self-sabotage.
I remember them all.
The hate,
The anger,
The taunts,
The hurt,
The pain,
The bad things.
The bad feelings,
I'm trying but I can't seem
to let go.
