deja is so in love with alejandro. but when his best friend starts to catch her attention after awhile she starts to fall for mattia too. a couple of shared moments with mattia won't hurt, right? hopefully she won't get too caught up...
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(lowercase is intentional) song of the chapter- american boyfriend by kevin abstract
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deja's pov
i spent my entire first period staring at you. the guilty feeling in my stomach staying there the entire time. i was looking right past my boyfriend and right into mattia's eyes. of course, alejandro thinks i'm looking at him so he shoots me a huge smile. i'm in love with alejandro and i have been for the past two years. i love his dimples, his laugh, the way he treats me but the thought of mattia still never leaves my head. i hear my phone vibrate.
Snapchat mattia 🦋 is typing... from mattia 🦋 mattia 🦋:there a reason u staring over here ?
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Snapchat me: ofc. there always is. but i cant do this shit anymore mattia 🦋: he never finds out deja mattia 🦋: and you love how i make you feel me: that's the problem me: he never finds out and i feel so so so guilty mattia 🦋: then break it off dude. bc i cant do this secret shit anymore either smfh received 1 min ago
i'm so in love with alejandro. he knows every single part of me physically and emotionally, my family loves him, we talk about the future, he has goals for himself and even for us. it's just the excitement i feel with mattia cannot be duplicated. he excites me, he's spontaneous, and something about everything gives me this horrible rush i know i shouldn't feel. if anyone ever found out what i'd been doing to alejandro behind his back i'd be hated. my best friends would be so disappointed, kairi would never speak to me ever again, and i'd lose the love of my life forever. they'd hate mattia too, he'd lose boys that have been like brothers to him for years. everything needs to stop and maybe it will soon but for now seeing mattia here and there won't hurt right? what the f*ck am i talking about?? of course it hurts. i heard my phone vibrate again.
Snapchat mattia 🦋 is typing... from mattia 🦋
Snapchat mattia 🦋: wyd tn beautiful your boyfriends gotta soccer tournament outta town lmao me: mattia are you kidding me mattia 🦋: i dont joke when it comes to you uk this deja me: my moms probably about to be at my titi's and mariana's still at college. come over ig mattia 🦋: knew you'd be down lmaooo didn't even have to convince you me: shut up mattia 🦋: make me. mattia 🦋: oh wait, you will tn me: ...we'll see opened 3 min ago
i've never hated someone the way i hate myself right now.
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veryyyy short intro chapter just to get everyone into this. i hope i can keep ideas coming and update this sort of often. it might be hard bc i'm failing geometry anddddd i take ap world lmao. if any of you has any ideas or listens to the songs just leave a comment!!!! vote please :) thanks for reading love bugs 🦋
