deja is so in love with alejandro. but when his best friend starts to catch her attention after awhile she starts to fall for mattia too. a couple of shared moments with mattia won't hurt, right? hopefully she won't get too caught up...
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song of this chapter: breakfast with the moon by powfu
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alejandro's pov: i jumped hearing my phone ring. "who the fuck is calling i went to bed hours ag-" as soon as i saw the name i smiled. the words "DEJA NOELLE 🌎💕 would like to facetime" lit up my screen. i answered right after i turned my light on. usually i don't answer calls after i've gone to bed but anything for deja. she looked super upset as soon as it connected. "what's wrong baby? are you okay do i need to come over?" she shook her head no, "i just can't sleep that's all i'm okay." i knew this was cap. she looked like she'd been crying her eyes out. i decided to just leave it alone because she obviously wasn't in the mood to talk about it. "are you just overthinking again? is that it?" she stated at the wall for awhile and finally asked something i never thought she would. "no matter what i do, will you always have love for me? like no matter what i do will you always keep that 'i wanna marry deja someday' mindset?" she was making zero sense. what did she mean no matter what she did? i explained that i needed a minute to think about that. how bad did she mean? i decided not to ask too many questions and just say, "you could never do anything to me that would be bad enough for us to end. we're in love deja , i don't think you'd ever do anything horrible to me and you know i wouldn't even think about hurting you." it was silent for awhile then i heard quiet sobs. i was so confused, "deja what's wrong why are you asking all these questions why are you crying what's up i'm so confused..." she just sat there and kept crying. she finally said, "it's nothing ale, i just want us forever and wanted to make sure this wasn't going to end anytime soon. just wanted to make sure there was nothing that could get in the way of us being a forever thing." i smiled so big, that was the sweetest thing anyone's ever said to me. "deja, i am so beyond whipped. you're my favorite person in the whole world. in the whole universe dude. like i cant even begin to explain..." she interrupted me. "thank you. that's all i needed. goodnight i love you." she hung up. not exactly how i wanted the call to end but i figured she was just tired and not thinking right and that's why she asked in the first place.
deja's pov: i hung up on alejandro after asking him if he'd love me no matter the consequence. i know he'd think i hung up because i'm tired but i hung up so i could sob without having him ask me what's wrong. i can't even tell anyone what's wrong. i can't tell my two best friends, my mom, my titi, or alejandro because none of them would ever forgive me. the only person i can tell is mattia, the boy helping cause all these problems. i hate myself so much because mattia has absolutely nothing on alejandro. he will always be the better option and even mattia knows that. i love alejandro and i can't believe i've been cheating on him for the past year. i still haven't come to terms with that. i want to marry this boy for god's sake and i'm cheating on him in high school already. what does that mean for the rest of our life? mattia was 100% right, i'm selfish, i'm being a horrible girlfriend, and a horrible person. i'm about to make it worse too... i picked up my phone opened snapchat and started typing.
Snapchat me: mattia. mattia 🦋: wtf do you want dude me: i need you to come here and chill w me i'm freaking out rn mattia 🦋: i'm not helping you bc you're freaking out over your relationship. i cant continue to have these feelings for you deja. if you tryna fck ig i'm down but i cant do the hang out and just chill thing anymore mattia 🦋: you just keep making me fall deeper and deeper. selfish asf as always me: i'm sorry. mattia 🦋: you're not sorry mattia 🦋: you're sorry you're getting caught up. you only care about yourself deja mattia 🦋: but if you wanna send me sum to make up for it tho i'm always down ;) me: lmao
i don't know why i said that. nothing was funny. it wasn't funny that i ended up sending to him, it wasn't funny that i was asking him to come see me and talk right after i got off the phone with alejandro, nothing was funny about this whole mess. it will never be funny.
Snapchat mattia 🦋 is typing... from mattia 🦋
Snapchat mattia 🦋: goodnight gorgeous me: gn mattia mattia 🦋: sweet dreams mi amor 💕 mattia 🦋: LMAOOO get it cuz that's what ale says to you every night (received 3 min ago)
again nothing was funny. nobody was laughing their ass off.
Snapchat mattia 🦋 is typing... from mattia 🦋
Snapchat mattia 🦋: too far? (received 1 min ago) mattia 🦋: yea def too far (received 2 min ago) mattia 🦋: goodnight again (received 5 min ago)
