caught up ; mattia polibio

✰ chapter 11 ✰

song of this chapter- french kiss by jeremy kingg

mattia's pov

i drove home by myself because deja upped and left. i feel horrible because i chose to spend time with her instead of my family. i could barely see the road because i was to the point where i was crying my eyes out and yelling the words to robbery by juice wrld (rip juice 999.) this sh!t was straight up embarrassing at this point. when i got home i opened my front door walked downstairs and threw myself onto my bed. i had no idea what i could do anymore. this time i was sure i lost deja for good. i honestly do think it's what's best for the two of us though. although i have so much love for her, i'm still mad at her so i had a great idea. i do love getting back at people, and i'm pretty good at it. i whipped out my phone and started texting.

Snapchat
me: hey gorg wyd

i knew exactly what i was doing and i was just waiting for a response. after about 10 minutes i got exactly that. my phone lit up and made two sounds.

Snapchat
alivia parrish is typing...
from alivia parrish

alivia parrish: lol hey nmu
me: if you're not doing much you can always come over to mine
alivia parrish: you never text me anymore where's this coming from
me: just was thinking bout you
alivia parrish: oh okay uhhh i have nothing else to do so i'll be over in 15
alivia parrish: i'll walk it's only a couple houses down lmao
me: sounds good :))

if i can't have her might as well have her best friend. also, once deja sees this i'll have her too. that's how she operates. once deja sees me hanging out with alivia she'll get jealous and want me all over again. this has happened multiple times with multiple girls. deja is the most predictable person i've ever met and it's not even just because i know her well. you can see her every move before she even knows that she's doing. time passed and i heard my doorbell ring.

i went upstairs to let alivia in. i smiled at her, "hey liv, you looking as beautiful as always." she seemed flattered but a bit confused. "since when do you notice or care about anything i do?" i couldn't tell her the truth because that'd be horrible. i'm so bad under pressure though... "uhh just saw your post on insta and i remembered how pretty you were i guess."

quite honestly, i didn't really care about the post. yes, alivia was a beautiful girl but she didn't have what deja had. alivia is super smart and put together but that's about all she has going for her besides her looks. she can't make me laugh the way deja can or anything like that. she noticed i was getting distracted. she snapped her fingers, "umm mattia? you good?" that's another thing i couldn't stand about liv. she has this impatient attitude and that's the first thing i noticed when i met her.

still, this would make deja BEYOND jealous and have her crawling back. this made me realize how horrible of a person i was... i had to distract myself even more. "sorry just a little distracted, you can put something on the tv if you want." we sat and watched the vampire diaries for awhile and cuddled. i felt absolutely nothing being with her.

i'm perfectly fine being friends with alivia but we just have nothing in common so this whole thing was getting difficult. i didn't like the vampire diaries, we had nothing to talk about, all we've done is cuddle, and the list goes on and on. still, i had a goal. "hey beautiful," i broke the silence, "take a picture for my story real quick."

she cocked her head a bit, "you never post girls..." i had to make up another lie. i was on a roll today and not a good one... "i guess you're just special then." i laughed nervously hoping she wouldn't notice. that was the biggest lie ever she's far from special to me. she smiled. fck, she believed me. i ended the conversation there and posted my picture.

alivia really was a gorgeous girl and i wish i could feel something for her, anything at all, but i couldn't. she told me she should be heading home and gave me a kiss on the cheek and left. i didn't even bother walking her out which was very inconsiderate but quite frankly i didn't care. there were no sparks and i probably won't be seeing her again unless i need to. my phone went off a couple minutes after my post and i already knew exactly who it was.

Snapchat
deja 🧚🏼‍♀️💕 is typing...
from deja 🧚🏼‍♀️💕

i got exactly what i wanted. deja is STILL wrapped around my finger.