caught up ; mattia polibio

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song of the chapter- sativa by jhené aiko ft. swae lee

deja's pov

i was in shock when i saw mattia's story. him and alivia ??? my best friend alivia of all people. i knew exactly what he was pulling and i had never ever been more upset at him. my first thought was to tell liv but i couldn't because then it would lead in to me having to tell her about me and mattia... this whole situation just got a whole lot messier. do i text him and question him? honestly, just going to go off impulse and do that.

Snapchat
me: what's going on rn did i miss something

i needed to text alivia too because i just don't get why she didn't tell me. the whole thing is just sketchy. i decided to call her. she picked up quickly with a happy, "hey love." i wasn't as happy as her to say the least. "hi alivia. care to explain you, hmm how do i say it... hanging out with mattia fucking polibio late as fuck yesterday?" she laughed even though literally nothing was funny.

she continued, "yea he just randomly texted me and asked me to come over. i don't know i had a good time so maybe it'll happen again." alivia is the most naive smart girl in the entire world. how do i tell her without sounding suspicious that mattia's in love with me and using her. that sounds horrible in my head so i can't even begin to imagine how much those words would hurt out loud. i forced a smile, "aw i'm so happy for you."

i was lying my ass off. i couldn't stand to see her hurt but there was no way for me to prevent it at this point. i made up an excuse that i had to go said i loved her and hung up. i saw a notification i've been waiting for pop up.

Snapchat
mattia 🦋 is typing...
from mattia 🦋

i didn't even have the heart to take the emoji from next to his name. proof i'm pathetic...

Snapchat
mattia 🦋: wym lmao
me: you and liv? like what
mattia 🦋: just an interest i have i guess
me: just a coincidence she's my best friend?
mattia 🦋: not everything's about you deja. you'll never get that will you?
me: guess i won't.
opened 3 min ago

after reading that i just broke down. mariana walked in and she was very concerned, "baby, what's wrong are you okay?" i sobbed into her chest and shook my head. i managed to speak enough words over heavy breathing and sobs to tell her i made a really big mistake. "umm i'm not going to be an auntie am i?" she laughed nervously. honestly, i wish that was the problem. it's better than that i had to tell her that i've been cheating on the boy that she would expect me to be expecting with.

i shook my head. "no mar i think it might be worse." she looked puzzled, "elaborate please." i took a deep breath and looked at the ceiling. "what if i told you that...that i feel a little attraction towards someone's that's not alejandro...andddd thatshisbestfriend." she rolled her eyes, "deja slow the last part down." i looked into her eyes and saw my father. she had his beautiful, kind, eyes. i felt even more disgusted with myself. i closed my eyes and took a breath in. "mariana," i paused for a second to collect myself, "sometimes i feel
things for someone else... you know mattia?"

she had no words. after a long pause mariana finally spoke up, "deja you're joking." oh sh!t. this was not going the way i planned. the only thing i could do was lie. maybe that's what i do best now is lie. i can't believe i was still lying the first time i was supposed to be honest with someone. "i mean listen me and him
haven't physically done anything but he flirts with me and sometimes i really want to give in..." she stopped me abruptly. "deja noelle, listen to me right now. you're going to risk losing the best thing that's EVER happened to you for MATTIA? the cocky fucker doesn't even know how to act dude. you have alejandro!! like i'm still convinced this is a joke. i'd KILL to have what you have and you're my baby sister. do NOT throw that all away because you can't make up your mind. that's not fair to alejandro or the family that's learned to love him."

she was completely and 100% correct. i just nodded, "thank you. i love you." she gave me a hug, "i love you too dej. thank you for being honest. if you ever need to tell me anything i'm here." i just kept resting my head on her shoulder sobbing. i wish i could tell her the whole truth. but based off everything she just said to me, she's definitely not ready to hear everything.

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hey guys !! the boys finally reunited in florida 🥺 i'm so happy. v disappointed in kairi rn but i'm sure he'll figure everything out and apologize and suffer the consequences. don't forget to comment and vote :)