Lost in darken dreams
in flowing in tears
that made streams
that turned into oceans and seas
of what it is I bleed
what it is I see
that has lasted for years
because I held on to the fears
listen to the lies
that made my spirit slowly die.
My every tear now is a salty reminder
of the true abandonment,
but as tragic it all may seem
as hurtful as I feel...
I had to realize
it was the feeling of the real,
In those moments I felt so lost
in the darkness, they didn't care the cost
how they left me marked
all over my young heart
in the hours of need
no one care about me
or what was happening in my life.
The handwriting is on my wall
where I was left to fall,
words were spoken
that cut me so very deep
left me weeping
even in my sleep.
This pain was like someone
has put a knife right in my heart
then tore my world apart
I felt ingrained deep in the surface
of who I am to this very day.
This knowledge I received at a very young age
made me aware of those familiar pains
that gave my life so much rain
that showed I was never really loved me.
-Judy Emery Copyright © 2008
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery.
