~ 𝚒𝚜𝚘𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚍 ~ A Ben Solo/Kylo Ren Story

18.

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Celeste couldn't stop thinking about that damn dream. 

His lips fit perfectly into hers, as if they were made for only the purpose of kissing her.

She couldn't stop herself from smiling widely, then pinched herself on the arm. She shouldn't be thinking about him, she knew. She just kept picturing the way Ren had smiled at her. She was in a trance the whole morning, her head in the clouds. She was in a haze as she changed clothes and walked to the training room. 

She didn't snap out of it when she arrived at training. She wasn't listening well at all, and she felt weak. Her knees felt shaky, and she swore she could barely lift her arms. 

"Vega," Ren sounded exasperated, "Focus." He commanded. She mumbled an apology, her cheeks burning as she looked down. Now, just hearing his voice made her remember the feel of his lips on hers. 

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Kylo could tell the girl was much more out of it than usual. He didn't know what could be wrong. He had purposely tried to refrain from looking into her mind and thoughts recently since he knew she felt it was unfair. He didn't like being out of the loop, though. He tried to think of what it could be that was distracting her so much.

Had Hux done something again? His blood boiled at just the thought of it. Maybe she hadn't slept well? 

After about 2 hours of their worst training session to date, Ren snapped. 

"Why are you so distracted?" He asked, his patience worn thin. 

"What?" Celeste blushed, "Nothing," She said, avoiding his gaze. He sighed dramatically. 

"I will give you one more chance. Why can't you focus?" 

"It's nothing!" She said, sounding annoyed. Kylo sighed again and held his hand out, reaching into her thoughts. Her face fell, fear clouding her thoughts momentarily as she tried to stop him. She was too weak to keep him out, they both knew.

Ren recognized himself in her dream, as he took his helmet off. He realized he was in his own room. Why had she been dreaming about him, and why was it so distracting to her?

"W-what are you doing?" Celeste laughed, sounding slightly nervous. 

"Something I wish I'd done a long time ago," Dream-Kylo said in a soft, low voice. He ran his hand along her neck, then up to her jaw, holding her face gently, and pulling her close.

Ren watched the events unfold with relative calmness until dream-Kylo pulled Celeste in and kissed her. She didn't push him away, or fight back, or even seem to dislike it. He watched, eyes wide, as he and Celeste came apart, breathing heavily. He smiled at her before pulling her in again, and then the dream melted away. 

Celeste stumbled backward. To say she looked nervous would be an incredible understatement. She couldn't read Ren's features from under his helmet, and he was doing an infuriatingly good job masking them so she couldn't feel them, either. She was afraid that if she started to speak, she'd start crying, so she remained silent. 

Ren did as well, as he stood in place for a moment, before walking out the doors of the training room quickly. Vega let out a shaky breath she didn't know she was holding in. She hated to see how a dream that had brought her so many positive feelings was received so negatively by Ren.

It made some sense, ever since his injury and subsequent healing, he had seemed to avoid Celeste outside of training. She knew he was desperately trying to prevent relationships from forming, prevent attachment. But they both knew, deep down, that he was failing in preventing both from forming. 

What him seeing her dream meant for their already rocky, strange relationship, she didn't know. She did know how she felt, though, she was no longer conflicted about this matter. 

Celeste knew, for a hundred percent certain, she had wanted Kylo Ren to really kiss her.

But she knew he wouldn't. 

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