Sometimes I get depressed,
And my life becomes a mess.
More than it was.
And I can't control it or hit pause.
Even though i wish i could.
Because times like these I don't feel like I'm a person thats good.
People tell me to look at the bright side of life.
But there is no bright side, there's no light.
I feel as if im surrounded in darkness.
And suffocated by the heartless.
I feel bound in a chain of self hate
Feeling the pain of all this weight.
no one noticing the state of mind that I am in.
No one asking me how I've been.
I'm constantly in a battle with my own mind.
In a box that's so confined.
And im not okay.
I feel it ripping through my brain.
Eating me up from inside.
Until all i want to do is hide and cry.
I'm ashamed of the way I feel,
Because then everyone says that it's not that big of a deal.
Even though I'm hiding my urge to die.
They still say I have no reason to feel this awry.
Though i know there's no definite reason behind the depression.
I feel like somehow it's a beg for attention.
Even though I know its not.
I still get lost in the negative thoughts.
Sometimes I learn to pull myself out of the cycle.
But other times I get caught in the denial.
And constantly question my own intentions.
And my need for perfection.
I question myself constantly,
and always tread cautiously.
I always told myself I was broken,
But it's not the first time I have misspoken.
We are not broken or unloved.
We are only slightly bent and in need of someone.
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In The Dark
PoetryPeople always say, 'There's no reason to be depressed.' or 'what do you have to be depressed about.' alot of the times its, 'you seem fine to me.' yes, I do seem fine, but I'm breaking underneath the surface. They don't see behind the mask we all ho...