In The Dark

I didn't see it before

I didn't see where I was like her.

I didn't see where the pain came from.

I didn't know what I was saying.

My mind just wasn't working.

My emotions ran rabid.

And let itself wreak havoc.

I sat in the passenger seat while the depression drove.

It always liked being the star of the show.

No matter what I really wanted to say.

It would never come out into the day.

I never realized how much of a problem I truly was.

I'm sorry for everything I caused.

I never meant to cause any harm

But I did and it's wrong.

I swear that I didn't know that's what it was.

I couldn't identify that the problem was me all along.

I didn't see I was the common factor all the time.

I didn't realize that's the reason I cried all the time.

I believe I truly have a problem

But no one will admit I'm where it came from.

I'm part of the reason our whole lives blew up.

I'm really messed up.

I knew she hurt me in the past.

But I didn't see the way I would react.

I became just like her.

It's happened in a blur.

I didn't see what I did.

I can't believe I gave in.

I'm so sorry for what I caused.

Please so help me God.

I feel like I am nuts.

I want to rip out my guts.

I'm sorry I did this all.

I should leave before I cause more.

I understand if you don't want me around.

I won't talk or say a sound.

I'm sorry I am like her when you thought I was not.

I wish I could sit in a hole because of my decisions and rot.