In The Dark

Into The Darkness

Looking into the mirror at my reflection,

Pointing out every single imperfection.

I lift my hand and punch the glass.

Everyone will say that I overreact. 

The pieces fall to the ground. 

I’m so numb that I don’t even hear the sound. 

My hand is bleeding.

Blood dripping on the pieces.

I look down at the broken mirror,

I’ve never seen myself any clearer. 

The darkness surrounds me now.

I put my head low and bow. 

I’ll submit to the dark.

I won’t make any stupid remarks.

It can tie my wrists and bound my legs.

I won’t even try to beg.

I’m slipping into the darkness.

I feel like I’m becoming heartless.

Tired of being alone but don’t want company. 

I’m not the same girl that was so bubbly.

I crawl my way into the dark to be alone. 

Because that’s the only way to live that I’ve ever known.

Sitting in the dark, knees to my chest. 

Trying my hardest to keep my tears repressed.

There’s nothing you could say to fix my mind.

I can only leave everything and everyone behind.

I refuse to be judged by people who fit in a box.

When I know I’m someone who still totally rocks.

Yet, I’m still in the darkness.

I feel like I’m the devil incarnate.

I wanna be in the light but I know,

I’ll never be able to let these feelings go.

Anger builds inside of me.

Just looking at all these wannabes.

I’m still alone in the dark,

The only company is my thoughts.

I get lost in my head, 

Even when I’m alone in bed.

When I’m outside the house, it’s like I’m on autopilot.

Quietly dying but I’m still smiling.

I feel myself dying and no one will notice.

At this point, I know that I am too broken.

I’ve gone too far into the darkness, that I know.

But now I don’t have anywhere else to go.

I’m sorry that I got stuck in this hell,

I guess that this is my final farewell.