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In The Dark

Poetry

People always say, 'There's no reason to be depressed.' or 'what do you have to be depressed about.' alot of the times its, 'you seem fine to me.' yes, I do seem fine, but I'm breaking underneath the surface. They don't see behind the mask we all ho...

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If Only

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by Brooklyngirl1026

by Brooklyngirl1026

*New Poem! Hope you guys enjoy!*

If only I could keep my head up.

If only I could put down the cup.

If I could take the voices out of my head.

I'd make sure they'd stay dead.

If only I could ignore the instinct to kill myself.

then the only part of me will be left on the shelf.

I would go to college and maybe get a degree.

I bet you didn't think this was who I was going to be.

If only I could pull myself out of this hole.

The last time I was really happy was so long ago.

I feel trapped in a cage at the bottom of the sea.

If only I could break free.

I run from the emotions my heart tells me to feel.

The depression is too much for me to deal.

If only I could ditch the anxiety in my heart.

It wouldn't be something tearing me apart.

If I could push away the need to cry.

I'd never let anything eat me up inside.

If only I could take away my kindness,

It has caused me nothing but hardships.

All these ifs but I can't do anything now.

It's been too long that I've been down.

If only I could rise from the night.

And give a little more fight.

I'd be okay to move on.

All my pain would be gone.

But it's part of who I became.

Now I'm left listening alone to the rain.

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