~my heart~ (Jeonglix)

Part. 50

JEONGIN'S POV:

I blush at his sudden cheesy line. I slap Chan hyung's chest and whine as Felix hyung is not too near for me to do so. 'how can he be this cheesy at time like this?'

"Felix seriously? At time like this?" Seungmin hyung chuckle make we all laugh too, well... Except for hyerin noona.

I peek at her above Felix hyung shoulder and she look disgusted. She roll her eyes and cross her legs.

"Really?? He doesn't deserve you Felix, I do." Hyerin said, annoying the others there.

"Listen here you lunatic girl, this Felix boy right here aren't going to accept you even if he didn't fall in love with jeongin. He's gay okay. G-A-Y GAY. Not bi or pan. GAY!! UNDERSTAND?!?!" Chan hyung shouted at her. Honestly I've seen Chan hyung gotten even mad before so I'm not scared of this sight of him.

But if I say I'm not surprised it's a lie. I flinched the moment he shout. 'g-a-y... Gay. That's sound weird' somehow I like the word bi more than gay. But I shrug it off.

Felix hyung turn to hyerin, hand on my waist. "What hyung said is right. I'm gay and not bi. Women disgust me as all girls I see is just a slut but I've tried my best to not think of that anymore. My mom said it's not true. So maybe aren't all of them are slut but some of them are surely a lunatic and psycho like you."

"Hyung... That aren't nice..." I whisper to Felix hyung. Of course I am scared of her and angry that she hurt my precious hyung but still... She's a girl. My dad said a girl is like a wet tissue.

One wrong move can tear everything apart and cannot be fix anymore. "Noona..." I walk to her. Felix hyung stop me by holding back my waist, making me to turn to him.

I whisper to him that it's fine and he let go of me. I take a deep breath and turn back to hyerin. Yes she's a noona but I don't think that she need the title noona that much. Enough I called her noona while talking to her. That's the best respect I can give to her.

"Noona... I'm.. I'm sorry..." I say slowly, not whispering though. She let a laugh. "Yes you shou-" "But I really am not sorry for taking Felix hyung."

Her smirk like face dropped immediately as she quickly replace it with an unbelievable face. "Do you hear yourself?" She ask in annoyance. I nod my head. "Loud and clear noona."

"You really don't realise your position ha?" She rolls her eyes to me. "You're the one that isn't. You're literally surround bus yet you still being like this." Hanyu said.

I just noticed that he hasn't said a word ever since we came in. I turn to him and smile, muttering a 'thank you' to him.

Hyerin turn to him and clicking her tongue at him. She turn to jeongin right back "Do you realise that you've made almost everyone's life miserable?  Because of you I got rejection and depression!! Because of you I turn to be this lunatic you guys called me. AND BECAUSE OF YOU!!" hyerin pointing her finger at me as she stand up.

The others, seungmin hyung and hanyu stood up too in reflex as they don't want the girl to hurt me maybe.

"BECAUSE OF YOU! YOUR PRECIOUS HYUNG GOT SERIOUSLY HURT AGAIN!!" hyerin shout at me. I stiffened at the statement.

I went quite for a while, thinking, and Felix decide to talk before me. "DON'T YOU SAY THA-" "Hahahaha,,,," I cut Felix hyung by laughing.

Now that I think about it, it's funny how this noona over here trying to destroy my mental by putting the blame on me. At first I'm quite convinced that all of this is my fault but the more I think about it, it's actually not.

"What are you laughing for?" She ask in annoyance. "I laugh because I find it's funny." I say, pulling the nearest chair and sit down.

I sit cross-legged and look up to her. She have this amazing annoyed face on and her face is red. "WHAT ARE-" I put up my hand, preventing her from talking.

"It's funny how to try to put all the blame on me when it's literally your fault." I said calmly. She gasp in disbelief and swing her hand, trying to give a slap to me but got stopped by hanyu who quickly pulled her hand down.

Seungmin hyung take that as a sign to hold her down. They both push the girl down to the chair that is facing me and seungmin hyung hold her hands from behind, just like how wooyoung hyung did to jisung hyung before we came.

"You know? At first it's no one fault. Felix hyung and I liking each other aren't bad at all. He rejecting you aren't bad but,,, the way you take his rejection as a reason to seek revenge are wrong." I said as I look at her in the eyes.

Her's still full of flame as she doesn't look bother by the fact I just said. "You know what?" We all turn to Felix hyung. "The reason why I'm intimidated by a lot of things in Australia and is so shy?"

I tilt my head as I smile a bit. I shake my head and he smile at me. "Almost all my friends there got at least a confession per person. While they rejected or accepted some of the confession, I can't even feel what getting a confession is, neither what having a crush is."

He fiddles his fingers unconsciously but quickly retreat it. He look at me with his bright and cool face but his eyes telling the otherwise.

It's... glossy. He must be really timid back then.

"I can't get to be my true self in front of them. Only when Chan hyung fly there or when I go to jae hyung and Brian hyung place, I get to be myself. It's hard but you, thanks to you I get to know what it feels to get confession and honestly... I don't like it."

Felix hyung let out a sigh. He then smile to me then turn to hyerin. His smile is still there. He probably relief that he finally letting that out. Thinking that he finally talk what's in his heart makes me smile unconsciously.

"So what you're trying to say?" I turn to hyerin and her face looks a bit calm than when she had to me. Although slightly annoyance can be heard in her voice.

"What I'm trying to say is,,,, whatever you're doing or you're gonna do, it'll not change my mind. I love what I have right know and that's enough. So please. Make your way out of here please." Felix hyung say calmly.

The smile is still there but his hand quite trembling. I guess not only who noticed the hand tremble...

"Let go" hyerin say emotionless. Seungmin hyung hesitantly let go of her hand and she stand up.

She walk up to Felix hyung and say "you know? I'm only going because you trembling so hard right now." She take his hand. "Not because I'm giving up."

She turn to me as she let to of Felix hyung hand. "And you, you heard me right. I'm not giving up and I'll try to get him again. But not like this I think..." She looks down.

I smile and walk to her. I put my hand on her shoulder, making her look up to me. "Just make sure you pay your regret rightfully."

And with that she left. With a small smile on her face.

"You guys loves story really have lots of blood."

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