No Better Heaven Than You.

Distance

Airi•

I just broke a cardinal rule.
A rule in life.
A rule between us.

No matter how mad we got, we would never scream and we would most definitely never ever hit. And yet I did just that. I had been crying on the couch silently for hours, just beating myself up over it. I refused to mention it to Gilly, he was already mad at Tray. Tray, who has been locked away in his room blasting music for hours now. I wanted to leave, to go home but I felt to scared to move. My body was in shock, I was in shock. I had just punched him in the face. Something so...futile could've became so violent in a matter of seconds because I couldn't control my temper.

How childish.

"Fuck Airi." Scolding myself aloud once again, I sighed as I rubbed at the purple splotches on my neck. Love marks.. The day after graduation I came over instead of the night of. We drank, we had a massive sleepover and in the middle of the night...He just..I didn't know how to explain in real worlds but. He just came alive, and I was fueled by Liquid courage and pent up emotions. Rubbing my hands along my face, I crept upstairs to pee and wash my face. I knew he couldn't hear me, but I was paranoid nonetheless. Glancing at his bedroom door, I moved down the hall towards his parents room. Just before there room resided the infamous guest room. Resting my forehead against the doorframe, I took a deep breath as I pushed the door open. Everything was a mirror to the way it was that faithful night. Flopping on the soft mattress, I buried my face in my hands. I had to woman up about what happened, and do it now before I lost him forever.

Knock. Knock.

"Tray...Tracy..." When nothing but music continued on, I gently pushed the door open. Slowly approaching his bed, I realized he was fast asleep. Upon closer inspection, my stomach dropped. Underneath his right eye the skin there had become a shiny black and blue, surrounded by inflamed & reddening skin.

"Oh my god, Tray I'm so sorry!" His eyes snapped open then, as he lurched forward in delirium and panic. When he realized it was just me, he turned the radio off and laid back down with his back to me. Climbing in behind him, I froze when he spoke.

"Airi get out, I'm not in the mood."

"Tray..Tray I'm so sorry. I just. You're right, I shouldn't deny how I feel but. Can you look at me..please?" It took him a minute, but I felt the bed shift and I looked up to meet his hard gaze.

"Speak." He spit out, still very clearly heated.

"I just. You left me. We did all of that, but we were still inseparable and you just went back to her like nothing happened. It was almost like you forgot. You didn't care what I did, how I felt or what happened to me and I-"

"I did care, but I also was in the wrong for even doing that. I was in a relationship. I'm single now and I don't owe her or anyone else an explanation as to why you and I are suddenly together. We don't even have to rush it like that, we can take our time. But all this hitting and yelling? If that's what you on, you can leave now." Smacking his teeth, he rolled away from me on that note. Reaching for him, I melted into his side as my emotions took over. He didn't say anything and I didn't either. Not for awhile, but eventually I felt his arms snake around my body.

"Take a nap. I forgive you." Feeling his chin rest atop my head, I wrapped my arms around him just the same.

"I love you Tray.."

"I love you to babygirl."

Brief chapter but, you got the point. Where my Trairi stans at?! :)

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