No Better Heaven Than You.

Home Sweet Home

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"See you later?" Shrugging, I gave him a loose hug before stepping outside into the cold with his sister as she said her goodbyes to him. Last night was indescribable, I had no idea where to go from here. I was at a loss, honestly speaking. I had no real answers for him, this relationship was starting to feel like an emotional burden rather than something to grow in. I get that he had hardships as well, but it wasn't my fault that he didn't speak up and tell me. I couldn't have noticed he was hurting, not when I was hurting more. But then again maybe I couldn't cap just how much he was hurting, but I knew in my belly it couldn't be more than the pain I was facing. It was just..pain nonetheless though.

"Ready?" Nodding to his father, I buckled myself in as he shut my door and climbed in the drivers seat. Lifting my head, I watched as Tray slowly shut the front door to his grandparents house, before the light in the living room shut off. Looking down at my phone, I waited and waited for a text from him when it dawned on me.

His parents took his phone.

I had no idea how he would earn that kind of money, but I wasn't all that sure I was even in the empathic space to care right now. I just wanted to be home, to focus on myself for awhile and heal. Before long I got that wish, but not without having to fabricate the story of what really happened. When that sure fire hell was over, I found myself curled up into my fathers side as he played in my hair.

"Are you happy Airi?" To say that question caught me off guard was an understatement. Lifting up from under his embrace, I turned to look him in the eyes.

"I..I mean I guess." I mumbled, gripping his hand when he reached for mine.

"Before I leave this earth I-" Sighing, I pulled my hand away from his.

"Daddy for once can we not focus on your health status? I know you're terminal, but it's not exactly table talk. I just want to spend time with you.-"

"I understand that berry, but this is our reality. I'll be more positive and tone it down, but I know you Airi. You get caught up in the moment and forget that in the long run...bad things happen baby." His words hit harder than I wanted to admit that they did, but I swallowed them with a can of paint and hugged him tight to me.

"I love you daddy." Resting my cheek against his, I finally let go off the pain I had been holding onto since his prognosis had been given.

"Alright, alright stop all that now. You have forever to be sad and miserable, save that for when you're old and can't shit on your own no more!" Laughing when he said that, I swatted at him for his poorly constructed joke. Our moment was interrupted when my siblings rushed into the living room, and my phone started buzzing.

"Go ahead, you spend more than enough time cooped up in this house with me." Rolling my eyes, I walked to my room, allowing them much needed relaxation time with him before they had to focus on there school work. Time was ticking down for them, and they were nearing the middle of March. Answering my phone, I flopped on my bed as I spoke.

"Hello?"

"Hey." Growing silent when his voice wafted over the receiver , I sat up and closed the door. I hadn't mentioned it before but it's been a couple of weeks since I've been home. Just as I was starting to enjoying myself again, he calls. Why do men do that? They always know when we're okay without them. I loved Tray and I always would, it's just that... This wasn't our first rodeo, we've had so many rough patches throughout our friendship. I was just tired, almost yearning for something new. But I knew in the back of my mind, I was just afraid of getting hurt by him again and being stuck in a continuous loop. It's like when it was good it was great, but when it was bad it was ugly. I didn't want nor need that, in our budding relationship.
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