No Better Heaven Than You.

At my lowest.

Please don't leave when I am broken
When I am at my lowest
I need you here
To try and fix me
Please don't go.

T R A Y•

Shifting uncomfortably at my kitchen table, I listened to her sing.

"What do you think about that? Sound good?" I had been on the phone with this girl for at least an hour. Airi was asleep so her phone call couldn't save me. But I could save myself from this situation...it was just.

I missed hearing her voice.

"It..it was good Chanel. As always." Her voice was soft and soothing to me as she sang. Smiling, she redirected the topic of discussion.

"So how have things been since I left? It's been a long few months right?" Agreeing with her, with a stiff nod. I nervously ran my hands over my thighs.

"I...it's been real good. Met someone new." At this I noticed a visible change in her demeanor, but she was quick to mask it with a small smile. This was okay right? I didn't know what appropriate protocol for talking to your ex was. I mean we've been broken up since mid April. It's been five months since then, nearly six.

"How long...after us-"

"A month. We've been dating a little over three months now." I didn't want to sugar coat anything with her, I didn't need my ex constantly calling or texting me like it was alright. Airi would flip, eventhough her Chanel were once friends.

"Wow, you sure were heartbroken over me huh? Well how is she? She better than me?" Eyeing the smirk on her face, I shook my head with a soft groan. This was the side to the Chanel, I always hated.

"I don't want to do this with you Chanel.-"

"Why not? It's been five months since we broke up, this should be okay right?" If I knew anything about Chanel she was nice nasty. She could come off as sweet when in reality she was feeling very, very sour.

"It should be but the extra...isn't needed. Is she better than you? I'm not going to sit here and compare you two. All I know is I love her, and I'm with her. Is that what you want to hear Nel?"

"Tuh. Nel? Don't call me that. You barely waited before jumping into a new situation. Shit was she already there? Do I know this bitch?" Feeling my neck heat up, I shook my head no.

"I'm not going to validate those words with a response." I bit back, trying hard not to slip up.

"I'll find out, I always do tray." Rolling my eyes, I ended the call before she could respond. She says that, yet she had no idea that I slept with Airi. Making my way upstairs, I pulled my phone from pocket feeling it vibrate twice.

Chanel: "What happens in the dark, always comes to light. I'll find out who she is.."

Baby🥴🙈🤤 : Hey baby, I'm up. Can we FaceTime? I'm home alone and I miss your company." Biting my lip, I deleted Chanel's message thread before calling Airi. Sliding under my blankets, I propped my phone up with soft smile.

"Hey babygirl". Chanel and I had a good run, and I didn't do completely right by her. But I had a chance to redeem myself with Airi now, and I wasn't going to let anything stop it..

Chanel: "Ignore me all you want, but I'll be back in town soon enough. You're dead ass wrong 💯"  Swiping her message from my screen, I relaxed as my focus went back to Airi as she reminisced about a childhood memory.

I wasn't going to let anything stop her from smiling again, especially Chanel.
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A I R I•
A few weeks later•