Decalcomania

pt7

I turned around and headed to the door, and the second I opened it, I saw her, looking at me with widened eyes and tears decorating her rosy cheeks. Her eyes fell on my mother's body on the floor, and I could notice the fear on her eyes. I immediately pushed her away and ran on the corridor, "Alvin!" she called, I wanted to ignore her but my body was so oblivious when it comes to her, she has a strong power on me.

"Don't follow me!" I managed to say

"Please, stop!" she exclaimed, her voice full of sorrow.

"Elyse!" I looked back at her, feeling my knees getting weak at how close she was, she was inches away, ready to pull me on her embrace like she always do. But at this point, I was afraid to hurt her too, I didn't know who I am or what I am, and until I figure it out, I can't be with her, not anymore.

She opened her arms ready to hug me but I pushed her away, the push had too much force in it, enough to throw her on the floor aggressively, she didn't look at me, instead, she just kept her head down and it broke my heart seeing her on the floor like that, helpless, disappointed and shattered.

"Stay away from me, as far as you can!" I warned, slowly taking steps back towards the main door, "don't look for me!"

"Don't wait for me!"

"And don't try to interfere in my life again!" I said, those words were as harsh on me as they were on her, they burned my throat before leaving it, I wanted to believe my own words but I couldn't.

I turned around and opened the door, one more step and I will be out. a small part of me wanted her to stop me, to hold me, to love me and save me, but I know the rest of me won't allow her, not anymore. I stepped outside, feeling the fresh wind running on my face, and before I close the door for once and for all, I heard her silvery voice, like a symphony to my ears "I will always love you!" and with that I closed the door and never opened it again...