Decalcomania

pt4

  I placed my hand on the knob and opened the door, swiftly walked inside and locked the door, I laid my back on the door and closed my eyes shut and released the salty water, but I promised myself, these will be the last ones I shed for him...

I felt a soft touch moving on my cheek, delicately wiping away my tears, and I knew, of course, I would, the same feeling, the same smell and the same wave of warmth. But it was all in my head, none of it is true, there is no way he would be here. I laughed bitterly and opened my eyes, expecting the ghost of his memories to disappear, but it didn't, there he was, too close to me, inches away if I may say. my eyes locked with his dark brown ones, sparkly and content, like never before. his hands wiped my tears away and soothingly caressed my cheek. "I hate to see your tears!" he whispered, leaning closer to me until our forehead collided.

"Your gorgeous eyes are swollen, there are dark circles here too!" he touched the spot under my eyes, rubbing it lightly "you still have your chubby cheeks, though!" he giggled,

I felt my breath hitching at every word he uttered, my knees got weak and I was barley standing. He noticed that too, he noticed how weak I have gotten the moment I saw him, that's why he wrapped his arm around me, holding me still in order not to fall.

"I miss you!" he murmured while smiling shyly, I have had enough of his cheesiness, I got my strength back and forcefully pushed him away from me, "never touch me again!" I warned,

"You sound like me, now!" he laughed, "are you adapting my rules?"

"I'm no joking, Alvin Noah Fuller!" I sternly said, and he laughed harder, "Adorable!" he managed to say between his laughter.

"Get out!" I pointed at the door, "Amelia is waiting for you downstairs!" I mockingly said, I rolled my eyes at him and walked to the bathroom but he was fast and grabbed my wrist.

"Did you really think I would leave you for another girl?" he spoke, "I had to leave, Elyse, I had to collect the lost pieces of myself, I couldn't see you hurting because of me anymore. And I knew that I don't deserve you or your love, you deserve someone better than that sick monster."

"it took me a lot of courage to walk away from you that night, every inch of me wanted to turn back and pull you in my arms, I wanted to take you with me, but I couldn't, you have had enough, lost your loved ones and lost yourself in your way of finding me. I couldn't see you hurting anymore." he paused,

"For you, I went to Amelia and begged her to take me back to the psychiatric hospital, this time not to stay but to be cured, I had hope this time, I had a goal and a reason to help myself, and that reason is you!. I fought every single day with your picture in my head, your ghost was everywhere, protecting me, loving me and healing me." he continued, "you transformed my emotions into a healthy perspective and the kind of good thoughts that build my better self. And I came to accept my alters, each one of them, to be part of me!" he finished.

I didn't waste any second as I threw myself on his embrace, clenching tight into his shirt, it is this moment that I was waiting for all this time.

"But Benjamin said you were with Amelia, and you also didn't ask about me!" I pouted, playfully hit his back, he chuckled "that was a little plan to make you jealous!"

"I left the hospital two days ago, and I immediately went to Benjamin, hoping to find you there or at least get your address, I was so excited to see you and tell you everything. But I was surprised to know that you were in the jail, you can't even imagine how horrible it felt, knowing you were locked in the dark room alone, it suffocated me, I almost lost myself again!" he stroked my hair gently and placed a soft kiss on my forehead, "was it bad?" he asked and I nodded, "anywhere feels bad when you are not there!" I mumbled

"Isn't it funny, that if I had made a different decision that day in the asylum, we wouldn't be here now? If I had known nothing about you being in that room, my fate would've been written in different ink. But I know, if you were not by my side now, I would have never become complete." I said

"I'm now in your arms, and there is no other place I rather be!" he smiled, "I finally found my home, with you, in you and because of you!"

I wrapped my arms tighter around him and he did the same, just like that, we stood in the middle of the room, holding into each other, listening to each other's heartbeats, synchronically beating together. We didn't say anything, in fact, we don't have to say anything, we both knew about one another, we could understand each other without saying anything.

"By the way, are you okay with Stephan and Leyla?" I questioned and I felt his head moving which meant he was nodding, "I talked to them yesterday, and I came to forgive them, I needed to forgive them in order to forget!" he honestly said and I couldn't feel more proud of how wise he became.

"And are you and Amelia close?" I spat, well, it sounded more like a whisper since I wasn't sure if I should ask this question, he giggled and I regretted asking.

"No, not at all!" he answered, "she is so rude and plain, not like you, so naïve and clumsy!"

I giggled and slapped his arm.

We were suddenly interrupted by a gentle knock on the door, "Uncle, open the door!" the little sweet voice demanded, I ran to the door and unlocked it, Noah stormed in and jumped on Alvin's arms, "My little man is here!" Alvin stroked his hair.

"Elyse, come here!" Noah waved his little hand on me, asking me to go closer, I obeyed the little man's orders and stood closer to them, "Elyse has beautiful eyes!" he adorably said

"Woah, we don't say that to Aunt Elyse!" Alvin suddenly said, "Aunt Elyse is mine!"

Noah shook his head and pouted "No, she is mine!"

Alvin widened his eyes at Noah "No, you are too young, she can't be yours!" he teased

"She can wait me until I grow up, I will eat all my broccoli and drink my milk to grow up fast!" Noah argued, throwing his arms to me, to carry him, I tried to carry him but Alvin refused, "Alvin, give me!" I demanded as I took Noah in my arms and he hugged me tight, "I love you!" he uttered using his sweet irresistible accent.

"Woah!" Alvin playfully rolled his eyes, making me burst into a loud laughter, he was jealous of a kid and I couldn't get over how adorable both of them looked while arguing over me.

Minutes later Benjamin came by and took Noah downstairs since he thought Alvin and I still have a lot of things to talk about, and honestly, yes I had something to say.

"Alvin, I need to visit my parents!" I spoke, feeling my hurtful words stinging my throat, he sat next to me and took my hand in his, gently rubbing it with his fingers, "Do you think you are ready?" he asked, I know he was concerned about my Asthma, and I was too, it happened before, whenever I think about visiting them I get a Asthma attack, from all the memories and the scenes in my head, I can think of them without thinking of what happened that day, and this is the reason why I never went to visit them.

"If you come with me!" I smiled at him and he smiled back, slightly nodding, "I will catch you if you fall!" his words smoothly sneaking to my heart.

"Always?"

"Always."

I rested my head on his shoulder and tightened my grip on his hand, "Shall we go now?" I suggested,

"If you say so!" he stood up and I followed him, we got ready and walked downstairs, only to be welcomed by the noisy living room, everyone were talking and laughing, the house was full of happiness and warmth, I smiled to myself and looked at the guy next to me who was also smiling at the view, I followed his gaze and I noticed how he was looking at his brother, Benjamin, he loved his brother so much, he was the only part of his family that left.

"We will be back!" I shouted and they all nodded,

"We are going to throw a party tonight, don't be late!" Sophia warned, I nodded and Alvin chuckled, I raised my eyebrow at him and he kept chuckling, and then he threw a wink to Benjamin who was giggling too in the other side of the room, "What was that?" I asked, he shrugged his shoulders and walked out of the house, I followed him and still kept asking the same question over and over again, but he was still ignoring it and plastering a smirk on his lips, I knew that smirk, he was planning for something.