Confession

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Armin, you beautiful man.

He had cleaned the apartment thoroughly and left so that we could be alone. That was all I needed to make a good first impression on Levi about my living conditions.
I had no idea how he knew I was going to bring him today, but it didn't matter much now.
"Hoh, not bad Eren..." Levi slowly stroked a finger over the couch and I watched him with bated breath. When no dust particles came up on his finger, he genuinely looked like he was about to smile.
Of course, he didn't.
"So what do you wanna watch?" I switched on Netflix and scrolled through the list, heart beating wildly from the excitement of having him at my humble home.
"Anything you choose is fine." The reply was supposed to be casual, but I blushed like an idiot anyway.
"Okay then..."
The Notebook caught my eye, but I moved forward just as quickly. He wouldn't like that, and it wasn't exactly appropriate when we were trying not to put our hands on each other.
"How about Inception?"
"Whatever." He sat down on the couch and raised an eyebrow at me. "Well?"
I blanched. "You...want me to sit beside you?"
"It's fine if you don't want to." He stretched his legs.
"No, I'm coming." I switched on the movie and gingerly sat down beside him.
I had watched Inception before and probably could've watched it again with interest, but it was impossible to focus when I could feel his warmth directly next to me.
In between, I started feeling drowsy. With bleary eyes I checked the time on the wall clock. It was 12:30 am.
Holy shit...
I could not believe that the hours had passed by so quickly. It had only been around 10 pm when we had arrived.
Beside me, Levi seemed genuinely into the movie. His eyes were fixed on the tv almost stubbornly. I found myself gazing into them, and after a while all I could see was his beauriful grey irises. I felt like touching him, and quickly pushed the thought away. Not now. Not now.
"Focus, Eren..." He suddenly whispered, unmoving. His eyes remained fixed ahead. It was the first time either of us had said anything ever since the movie started.
"Can't." My whisper came out as a croak.
"Goddammit, Jaeger..." In my periphery I saw his hand grip the couch fabric.
"Sorry again for today." I whispered.
"What do you want me to say?" His voice was bordering on exasperated.
"You don't need to say anything." I replied. "I have a problem I need you to help me with."
It was a shitty idea, formed by my half-assed thinking at midnight.
He said nothing.
Waiting for me to continue.
"You see, my girlfriend...."
His mouth twitched at that.
"..Hannah, you know her? Well, my parents want me to..in their words, 'court' her really well, so that she can start planning a future for us." My heart burned with outrage at the words, but I kept going.
"I'm still an amateur at this romance thing." I whispered as my fingers caught hold of his sleeve.
"Definitely didn't seem like that when you had your tongue down my throat." He muttered under his breath, his voice so low I could barely hear him.
"This is a favour, Levi." He could surely hear the loud-ass beating of my heart.
"What should I do?" He drawled.
Still not breaking, Mr.Ackerman?
I was actually gripping his wrist now with clammy palms.
"Can I practice on you?"
A solid ten seconds went by and he still didn't take his eyes off the screen.
"A question, Eren." He muted the tv and turned to me, locking eyes. "What's with your obsession about being a good boy to your parents?"
My eyes widened at their own accord. I definitely hadn't expected him to go down this path.
The subject of my parents was off-limits to even Armin.
This was the one topic I never talked about to anyone.
But he didn't know that.
"Levi, I can't..." I began but he cut me off. "I don't like hearing other people's sob stories, and you are no exception." His eyes were widened in a glare, like incoming thunder. "It's fine if you don't want to tell me. However, if you don't, you can forget about using me as a sexual tool for your girlfriend."
"What the-" I gasped and went closer to him "I never said that!"
"Shut up." His eyes narrowed, his mouth in a tight line.
Why was he so insistent on hearing about my stupid past?
I had never allowed anyone to dig this deep into me.
I was definitely going to regret this afterwards.
But now I just didn't care.
If I had an oppurtunity to touch him again, I'd take it.
I took in a deep breath and decided to start with "You don't wanna hear this shitty story." Anything to stall him.
"I asked a question." He snapped "Your job is to answer."
Yessir.
I was amazed how his commanding tone excited me to the point where I almost forgot what I wanted to say.
His expression was irritable but his eyes seemed warmer now, and open. As if he had been expecting this.
So I focused on the soft grey hues as I said my next words.
"Ever since I can remember...." I gulped, my throat tight. I never thought I would say it.
"My parents have always been the most paranoid people I have ever seen. They're obsessed...completely obsessed...with me getting a high-class job, whatever that means, and getting married to a suitable girl so we can keep sending them money."
I hesitated and gave Levi a quick glance for encouragement. There was no change in his expression, but his eyes were totally zeroed in on me.
"They have disciplined me all my life." I continued " Drilling into my head that I should study and win as many competitions as I can, get all As, screaming at me till their voices were hoarse which led to me going on a solid guilt trip...that sort of thing." I laughed a little, but it was a bitter laugh "My mom hit me all the way through my teenage years every time I messed up. You know those strict Asian parents who almost seem abusive? Armin once said that they looked like timid cows in front of my mom and dad. They hurt themselves trying to make me behave, and when I tried to fight back even a little...in comes the barrage of 'How could you hate us when we love you so much?' "
"But their intention was never to hurt me like that...I think." I scratched my head. "They also acted really gentle with me at times, so I always felt guilty about thinking badly of them."
Levi's eyes widened by a fraction and went to normal so suddenly I thought I had imagined it.
"But, um...the worst thing is..." I stared at my interlocked fingers. "They're raging homophobes."
"Of course they are." Levi muttered, his voice almost seeming annoyed.
"That was hard." I gasped and leaned back on the couch, resting my head back. "Thanks for listening. Sorry I'm such a brat."
"No, it's alright." He murmured.
Why did he sound oddly nostalgic?
"So, uh..." I raised my head to look at him. His back was turned to me as he rested his elbows on his knees.
"My part of the deal?" I asked breathily.
He froze, then covered his face with his hands and rubbed his eyes. "Tch!"
"Hey, you promised!" I grabbed his shoulder and tried to extract his hand back.
"I never promised anything, but all right, you shitty brat." His hands flew to his sides as that familiar glare hit me again.
I smirked slowly, pleased to see him blushing even a little bit.
"It's all for your girlfriend, right?" He asked cautiously.
"Yeah, of course...." I gripped his shoulders and leaned in slowly, tilting my head. "All for her..." I whispered. He closed his eyes, his brow furrowed. Of course he was expecting me to kiss him. But I felt like playing with him a little, so I swooped down at the last second.
My mouth enveloped the skin on his neck and sucked in. He grabbed the back of my shirt, an enticing hiss escaping his teeth.
His nails dug into my skin, sending jolts of pleasure through my body. Suddenly filled with energy, I pushed him down on the couch and bit down hard on his neck.
He cried out, the sound so arousing I could feel myself getting hard.
I positioned myself and thrust my hips down. He lurched forward at the same time I gasped out loud as I made contact with his clothed crotch.
"Argh, Eren...! Shit, don't get ahead of yourself...!" He thumped his fist on my back. The impact was surprisingly weak.
I grunted and thrust down again, but he grabbed me and with renewed force pulled me off him.
"Don't do that." He tried to sound angry, but his breathlessness only tempted me more.
"I'm sorry." I panted and grabbed the sides of his face. Before he could protest, I pressed my lips to his.
He squirmed under me but I held on tight, pushing my tongue past his lips only to scrape against his teeth. I opened my eyes in surprise to find him staring at me with absolute hatred in his eyes. Only for a second, though. The anger vanished quickly and he closed his eyes, parting his lips to invite me in.
I swiveled my tongue around his, our saliva mixing. I pushed my tongue into every corner of his mouth, drinking in that taste of his which bordered on intoxicating.
He moaned huskily and pushed his tongue against mine, winning the battle for dominance yet again. His hands were gripping my hair almost painfully.
My lungs burned, but I pushed in further, emitting a small sound from him which gave my heart a leap of excitement.
Levi gasped "Eren, stop-mm!"  His voice got cut off when I thrust my tongue deep inside his mouth.
At once he jerked on my hair hard and my head snapped back. Saliva ran down my mouth and his, and a line of it connected our tongues.
For a full minute we could do nothing but pant heavily like we had been running for hours. I was increasingly getting aware if this habit of mine which resulted in us getting extremely oxygen-deprived.

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