Diary Of (Actual) Complete And Utter Band Trash

It's All Over

March 5, 2020
Dear Diary,

I was going to ask her out today.

I really wanted to.

But before I had a chance to, Janelle broke my heart.

Okay maybe I'm being overdramatic but I can't help it. I am a drama queen, afterall. After Brianna told me not to tell anyone that she was going to ask out Janelle on Friday, I didn't. I didn't want to be a complete jerk.

Today in school Janelle told me she has a crush on Brianna.

I want to cry.

Actually I did cry. I literally cried when I got home. Is that bad?

She came up to me and said "hey, Ciara, can I admit something stupid?"

And my dumb ass thought she was about to ask me out! So I probably started blushing and I turned on my flirty side and asked her what was up.

She had such a hard time getting the words out, she kept giggling and blushing and hiding her face, it was adorable. I seriously thought she was about to confess her undying love or some Shakespearean crap.

When she finally found the words she broke me instantly. She just said, "I think I like Brianna!"

I'm pretty sure I made some choking noise and I said something like, "Wow that's surprising, I couldn't even tell."

And she said, "Yeah, it's weird, I just think she's adorable and she's really funny too. And I know I have a chance this time because she's bi. I always fall for straight girls, now is my chance to actually get a girlfriend!"

I fake laughed along with her.

Today has been a terrible day. I don't know what to do. Tomorrow Brianna is going to ask Janelle out and there goes everything. I just can't bear to see them together. How can I stop this?

No amount of Frank Iero pictures will solve this.