Diary Of (Actual) Complete And Utter Band Trash

Sad Day

July 6, 2017
Dear Diary,

Excuse me while I go bawl my eyes out.

This day.

Not too many years ago.

Panic! At The Disco split.

*Lays on bed and starts flopping around hitting and throwing whatever is in reach while screaming*

WHAT THE HECK WHY DID THAT HAVE TO HAPPEN THIS IS JUST A TERRIBLE DAY AND ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT IS WHAT IF RYAN AND JON STAYED BECAUSE I MISS THEM SO MUCH EVEN THOUGH THEY AREN'T DEAD BUT THEY'RE DEAD TO BRENDON AND DEAD TO SPENCER AND DEAD TO PANIC! AND DEAD TO THE MAJORITY OF THE FANDOM WHO DOESN'T KNOW THEY EVEN EXISTED AND WHY DO PEOPLE FORGET THAT RYAN AND JON HELPED THE EVOLUTION OF PANIC! SO MUCH AND WITHOUT RYAN THE BAND WOULDN'T HAVE EXISTED AND I WOULD BE MISSING A BIG PIECE OF MY HALF-DEAD HEART BECAUSE I'M TRASH AND BANDS ARE LIFE.

sorry i'm just slowly dying

Anyway! Cody invited me and Janelle over to his house to mourn today. Only Janelle is away for the Fourth of July. So I showed up to his house alone... The first time I have been to a boy's house since like, first grade...

And sure enough his great grandmother was staying for the weekend. And of course she just had to think we were dating. As if I live in some dramatic teen movie.

She asked him, "Cody, honey is that your girlfriend? She's very pretty!"

And he blushed super deep and shook his head. He tried to explain she was wrong but she cut him off saying, "I was worried you'd never have a girlfriend! Or really, any friends!"

It was all intended to be nice, she actually sounded really excited for him, she wasn't trying to be rude. I guess that's just how old people talk. We had a lot of fun and fake prayed to the emo gods asking for Ryan and Jon to come back. We then distracted ourselves from the sadness of the day by theorizing what the new Sleeping With Sirens and Twenty One Pilots teasers could be about.

okay now I will go back to crying...