It felt like an eternity that I stood there, patiently waiting to feel Shannon's warm, full lips against mine. However, that's not what happened at all. Instead, I felt them press lightly against my cheek. I won't lie, this wasn't what I had in mind, but just the feel of him touching me sent a shiver all the way down my spine. My eyes flew open in surprise and I struggled to find the right words for this extremely awkward moment, but they never came. Shannon's smooth voice cut through the uncomfortable silence. "Thanks for calling me. I'll make sure he sobers up before we leave." Did he seriously just brush me off? Jesus, I felt so stupid! Why did I even put myself out there like that? I had to know that it would only end in disaster anyway! Fuck, I'm so stupid sometimes!
My immediate reaction was to shrug it off, pretend it didn't happen, and get rid of him ASAP. I didn't handle rejection well, never did, and after dealing with Lola, Colton, and drunk Jared, why did it surprise me that Shannon shot me down as well?
Fuck! Can I just numb myself with some alcohol and then slip into a semi-coma for a few hours? I bit my lip hard enough to draw blood, my sad attempt to stifle the tears threatening to fall. I can't let him know that he still has the power to hurt me. "Sure. Have a good night," I insisted, darting around him and entering my apartment with lightening speed. Giving the door a hard shove, I wasn't expecting him to stop me from closing it all the way.
"Carrie- wait.."
"Hmm?" I muttered, avoiding all eye contact as I stared down at my pretty pink toenails.
"I need to get Jared."
Kill me now. As if I wasn't humiliated enough! But he was right. In the midst of my little pity party, I'd forgotten all about my boyfriend, still passed out on the couch. "Shit." I reluctantly opened the door and let him in, keeping my distance and refusing to look him in the eye.
He sauntered in and stood right in front of me, sighing loudly. "Listen, I'm sorry. I can tell that you're upset with me. I didn't mean.... It's just that-"
A sarcastic laugh escaped my throat and I hated myself for it. "Don't apologize. I'm just an idiot."
"No you're not. Look, we both know that there will probably always be feelings between us, but after taking a step back and really looking at what's happened, I've come to realize that everything is my fault." Pausing, he glared at me.
"Yes, we've established that you fucked up. I don't care to rehash it, and if you say her fucking name, I swear to God..." I was sure my cheeks reddened as I became deep in thought of what happened that awful night.
-Flashback-
I want you to stay quiet Carrie, but I'm letting you know that there will be three of us tonight, sweetheart." My heart instantly began beating faster and faster. I was stunned that even though he was still upset with Jared, he wanted a threesome anyway. I could feel the bed dip in front of me as Shannon continued to speak from across the room. The second Jared's smooth hand caressed my face, my lips started to tremble. I couldn't stop thinking of the times the three of us had been together before, and was thrilled that it was going to happen again. "Just relax, babe. You look so beautiful." I listened to Shannon say, just as Jared's lips claimed mine.
My head felt hazy and heat quickly consumed me from the sensation of his incredibly soft lips moving against mine. A little gasp escaped my mouth when he tugged at the sheet covering me, but I didn't fight him. I could feel Shannon climbing on the bed next to me and didn't know where to focus my attention, on him moving closer, or Jared's lips and teeth moving down my neck. The sheet seemed to slide off of me completely when Jared got to his knees between my legs, his teeth nipping at my flesh the whole way down.
