If We Never Met [Alfaro Series #1]

CHAPTER 2

Chapter 2

I saw Ralph sitting beside Maria's bed while holding her hand...

He's holding her hand so tight and it looks like he doesn't want to let go. What a nice scene. My boyfriend together with his ex.

Why is he here, though? Siya ba ang pinuntahan niya kagabi kaya umalis siya? Iniwan niya ako at hindi man lang niya ako matawagan dahil nandito siya?

After this stressful day, ito ang makikita ko? Damn it. She's his ex. Minahal niya siya. Fuck. I don't know what I am feeling right now. Gusto kong pumasok doon pero pinigilan ko ang sarili ko. I don't want to make a scene, I am better than that.

So, instead of going inside the room for Ralph to see me, I just walked away. I can't stand another minute seeing my man holding someone else's hand.

Habang naglalakad ako ay hindi ko mapigilan ang sunod-sunod na pagbuhos ng aking mga luha. It hurts. Masakit 'yung nakita ko. I have a lot of questions that needed to be answered but I refuse to go there. Baka mas masaktan lang ako sa maririnig ko. I'm not ready to hear everything.

This is enough for today. I decided to go home. I need to rest. Kakatapos lang ng exam ko tapos dumagdag pa ang nakita ko kanina. Pagkauwing-pagkauwi ko ay agad akong nakatulog dahil sa pagod.

Nagising ako dahil sa pagbukas ng pinto ng aking kwarto. Napatingin ako doon at nakita kong pumasok si Ralph. He's here. Iba na ang suot niya ngayon, siguro ay umuwi muna siya bago pumunta dito para makapagpalit.

I don't know if I should be glad that he's here now and just forget what everything I saw earlier or should I confront him now? Para masagot na lahat ng tanong ko.

"Ja, are you okay?" Tanong niya nang bumangon ako.

"I am. Are we okay?" Tanong ko naman sa kaniya. He looked confused but he still answered.

"Yes, we are okay. Why are you asking that?" He asked. Are we really okay?

I looked away. It pains me more to see him in front of me, acting like he was not with her ex a while ago.

"Why are you here?" I asked instead when I looked at him again.

"Manang Nena called me. Sabi niya mukhang may sakit ka daw kaya pumunta ako dito." Aniya.

"Are you worried about me?"

"Of course."

"Really?" I don't know how can I start confronting him. Siguro huwag muna ngayon? I don't want to have a fight with him right now. Pagod na pagod ako. I don't want to make decisions that I might regret in the future.

"Teka nga, bakit ka nagkakaganyan?" Tanong niya nang mapansin ang paraan ng pagsagot ko sa kaniya. I sighed, this is not the right time to have a fight with him. I'm really tired, kakatapos lang ng exam namin.

"Nothing. I'm just really tired." I said and sat down in my bed. Umupo naman siya sa upuan na nasa tabi ng kama ko.

"You didn't text or call me." I said. Napatingin siya sa akin. He stared at me like he's observing every move I make.

"I'm sorry. Nakalimutan ko sa bahay 'yung phone ko..." Liar. Hindi ka nga umuwi sa bahay niyo kagabi.

"And sorry for leaving last night, dumating kasi ang mga relatives naming galing US kaya sinundo ko sila kagabai." He continued. If I know nothing, maybe I will believe what he just said. But things are different, I know where he really was. I sighed again.

"It's okay." I am so dumb for pretending that everything's okay and for pretending that I don't know anything. Bakit hindi ko siya kayang sigawan at magalit sa kaniya ngayon? I have the right to get mad but I chose not to. Maybe I'm afraid that this would be the end of us. And maybe, I want him to tell me about it, without me asking.