The Untelling of Love & Happiness

Man TF Up; cont'd 5

Chp. 5: Breakeven (Falling To Pieces)

"Oh, you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain/ You took your suitcase, I took the blame/ Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains ooh/ 'Cause you left me with no love, with no love to my name..."
-The Script

Reluctantly dressed, I had begun to feel like going out would be pointless. More than likely, I wouldn't feel any better. Documenting my night probably wouldn't mean a damn thing to Kandace. Revenge could never be that sweet. She can be so nonchalant at times, or front and pretend like she is... I technically don't even want payback. I just want a simple apology for her words, I can get over her actions. Words speak much louder, it's true. I just want her to open up. Tell me what went wrong and how everything turned sideways. But she's stubborn, so by now, she's likely deleted me from her social media and is purging all of our precious memories. Here's a little honestly, I'm too chicken to look and see if my assumption is accurate. I'm sure I'm right, though. At least I know she hasn't blocked me, yet. I can still see her profiles.

"Okay. I see you, boo! You look cute!" Kasha said, trying to hype me up.

Kasha and Montana knew me too well by now. They knew that if they didn't change my mood before we left the dorm, the night would be a total drag and wasted effort.

Montana looked me over again, "You sure you don't want me to invite Keather?" Her eyebrow raised. "Y'all just look so damn cute together. She talks about you all the time, asking me shit. She asked me about yo' Jace tattoo. I brushed it off though. You want me to call her?"

I shook my head. Continuing to entertain Keather was not looking like the best idea. And even though I was curious of what she wanted to know about my tattoo, I decided to leave that alone since Montana didn't feed into the inquiry. If only I had my son, maybe it would be easier to get over his mama... Shoot, if I had my son, we probably wouldn't even be in this situation right now. Damn, maybe I did ruin her.

Kasha eventually refocused my thoughts, "What about the boys?" She guessed. "Can they come?"

I shook my head again. Everybody had girlfriends and were going to wanna add their girlfriends to the mix. I didn't wanna be around that energy.

"Okay, well, it's just you and yo' sisters then, sir! Where are we going?" Montana said proudly, before rolling her eyes. "...Since rock climbing is out of the question."

"Ooo, can we hit up Boogalou Lounge? I've been dying to get in there! I need this break! Y'all don't know how hard it is being responsible for a bunch of freshmen." Kasha said, practically whining.

"Yeah, that's cool! I don't care what we do or where we go." I sulked.

"Josiah!" Montana pouted. "Stop! You're making me sad now. I'm finna call her ass and put you out yo' misery!"

I quickly snatched Montana's phone out of her hand. Kasha let out a healthy laugh. They make me sick. Once upon a time they were all in love with Kandace, now they being petty. I released a slight smirk before reluctantly giving the phone back to Montana.

"SHOTS!" Montana yelled, taking her phone and putting it away.

Kasha agreed, "Because what is a blessed Sunday without communion?"