Something Gained

Girls day part 2

                     Ella and I left for our girls day adventures. I was excited about it because I've never really had a female friend or friends really. I wasn't allowed to have them.  Everything was so different now. I felt so different than who I was a year ago or even just a few months ago. I think this was the change I needed to be free and to be really me. I saw some place that sold smoothies so I asked if she wanted to go there. She got really excited and when I mentioned it. Then I found out she also loves strawberry smoothies. I had to laugh. She seems passionate about her smoothies. Which is a good thing because a poorly made smoothie is terrible. We got to the smoothie place and ordered our smoothies. After we got the them. We went to go outside because it was a very beautiful day here today and having the sun on you felt amazing.

            Ah the perfect spot. Not too many people here. "So Ivy, How are you enjoying it here? Cam told me why you moved here. How are you holding up with all the new changes?" Ella asked. I took a drink of my smoothie and sighed a bit. "It is overwhelming at times because It's not what I'm use too because stuff like this was never allowed. Most people knew who or what they were by now and I feel like I am still discovering who I am.   I never really had friends because Jett never approved of any of them. So I was alone most the time while he was out cheating on me. I feel free. I never thought I'd be able to completely start over and not have my past as something everyone knew." I replied. Ella studied me for a few minutes while sipping on her smoothie.

             I shifted in my seat and drank my smoothie when Ella finally spoke. "You seem nervous when people fight and I completely get it. But let me tell you something from my point of view on all of this. You are gonna have your hands full because James and Cam are both Idiots. I love them both very much but they are gonna compete over you. They both like you, although I am sure or possibly sure James does because of Cam or he finds you interesting. I think you can handle it well. You seem like the type who can handle anything. As far as your past goes, Fuck your loser ex. He should rot in jail. You are so kind and beautiful. I am glad you got away and came here. I am glad we all met you. I grew up with Cam and James. So I've seen people come and go because they couldn't handle the two of them. I can tell you can. Whether you date one or are just friends with them, I can see you staying. Other people I couldn't. Im glad you are because I like you and it's nice having a girl around."

          I laughed and said "Cam seems like a giant teddy bear except when he's angry. I am not sure about James. He seems really difficult. I like studying him and what makes him tick." Ella just laughed, "James is a good person but he definitely a difficult person. Sometimes things have to be his way or no way at all.  It takes a lot to reason with him. He is sweet in his own weird fucked up way. It just takes a lot for him to show that side. He tries to keep it in. He's a good person. He's just been hurt a lot so he has his defenses and that helps him cope and prevent getting hurt." We sat and just talked for hours. IT was such an amazing day. So many laughs. I don't think I've ever laughed this hard.