Something Gained

The plan

I just sat there in a daze. I couldn't believe this was happening. I came here to start over. Where my past wasn't. Now it's coming back and I've never been more terrified because this time it's not just me. It's my new family. My child. Sin. He could hurt them all to get back at me! I thought of running away and leaving but then realized how stupid that would be if I did that. They would still be in danger. I should have never came here. I lost it. I started crying so hard because these people mean so much to me. I hated myself so much for getting them involved in this. I watched Sin and James pack my things. They both kept looking over at me. I just sat there. I wasn't sure how to process all of this.  I jumped as soon as I felt hands on me. I looked up and saw Sin. "I'm sorry princess. I didn't mean to startle you. Are you ready to go?" He asked softly. I nodded my head, got up and walked over to James. I hugged him tight as I sobbed.  He rubbed my back. " Hey hey Jewels. It's gonna be okay. Sin is gonna protect you and the baby. We all are." James said. I just cried harder. " This is all my fault.  You all are involved and it's my fault." I cried. James hugged me tighter, "No it's not your fault. You didn't know. We are all going to get though this okay?" James said. Sin came over by us and he held me after James let me go. "Princess, this time you aren't alone through this. We've got us and we won't let anything happen to you." Sin said softly. "You guys shouldn't have to deal with my mess. I should just go on my own and let you guys live your lives." I cried. Sin and James exchanged glances. "You leave and I'll tie you up so you can't run. You aren't alone in this baby and you didn't do anything wrong. He's crazy but it's time for us to go. You need to rest for peanuts sake." Sin said. I hugged James again and headed out with Sin.

We finally got to Sin's house. He helped me inside. His house was a beautiful place. He said he'd show me around in the morning. He wanted me to rest. I was happy to oblige. I felt like I was going to collapse. I was happy to see everything on the first floor. I was too tired to walk up any stairs. Sin showed me his room. He helped me get comfortable. He just looked at me. I could see the concern on his face. "Baby, I can see how worried you are. I can go so y-" sin cut me off. " Absolutely fucking not. You will not leave. Get that thought out of your beautiful head. You aren't a burden. I know that's what your thinking. I'm gonna take care of you both. We all are. I'll be damned if anything happens to my girlfriend and peanut. That baby might not be mine, but I'm gonna protect it like peanut is my child." He came over, slid into bed next to me. He started rubbing my belly. Peanut finally kicked. I felt at ease. Sin just chuckled. We cuddled and then fell asleep.

I slept more peaceful than I had excepted. But I had Sin cuddled up to me. I had a really bad nightmare that woke me up. I felt Sin yelling my name as I was waking up. He held me tight rubbing my back. I could see the concern on his face. " Princess, are you okay? You were crying out in your sleep. You tossed and turned all night." Sin said softly. I realized I was shaking. "I had a bad dream. In my dream, Jett gets me and hurts all of us. It felt so real." I said. "I know princess but you are safe. I'll protect you and peanut. I took a deep breath and relaxed a bit. "I know baby. I'm just so scared and on edge over all of this. He shouldn't be here. I am pretty sure he used his police connections to find me." I said. "Police connections? Baby did you ever get a protective order against him?" Sin asked. I looked at him and shook my head. " Yeah his dad. And no, when he got arrested he was told he could never leave the state. So I thought if I left, I'd be safe because he couldn't have found me. I know it was stupid of me not too." I said. Before Sin could answer. His phone rang.  He answered it. "Ella, slow down. What happened?  Are you fucking kidding me?" He snapped. He was silent for awhile.  His facial expression was sullen. "What do you mean James is missing?" He said. I felt my stomach sink. What happened to James and why was he missing? I had such a bad feeling.