Something Gained

Life is so weird

I looked at Sin as he took my words into his head. I could tell he was really thinking about everything. I took a deep breathe and spoke softly. " I know I have a lot to make up for. I know I hurt you. I know I need to rebuild the trust I lost. I know I don't deserve a second chance, but I love you so much and you mean so much to me. I'd do anything." I was nervous as he just sat there. I felt like I was on pins and needles. I fully expected him to reject me, I know I didn't deserve another chance. He came over to me and wrapped his arms around me. I was confused but I relaxed into his arms because it felt right. He softly spoke "I know I shouldn't give you another chance. You really hurt me.  But I'm willing to try because I miss you and I really do love you. It's not gonna be easy but I'm here." I felt the tears fall.

         I couldn't believe my ears, he was actually going to give me another chance. I just stared at him, studying each feature of him. God I loved him. He must have caught me staring but he looked at me, he grinned. I felt his hands on my face as he gently kissed me. I started crying again. He wiped away my tears. "Sorry, pregnancy hormones are the worst. Plus I'm just so happy that your back here. I've been so miserable and sad without you. I've felt incomplete." I whispered softly. I could hear Sin sigh as he held me closer to him. After a few minutes of silence, he finally spoke. " I honestly wasn't sure if I was going to give you another chance. I was so angry with you, I was so hurt. I honestly felt betrayed and by that I shouldn't have given you a second chance but I honestly can't see my life without you in it or imagine someone else ever touching you again. You're mine and you've been mine the minute I first touched you. Am I scared that you'll hurt me again? Yes but that's not going to stop me from being with you again. It's going to take time and I know I'm gonna have jealousy issues with people around you. Just bare with me as I get over it." I took a moment to process his words. I understood where he was coming from. "I completely understand. I'll do anything not to mess this up again. I know people rarely give these chances and I'm lucky you are giving me this shot. I know I messed up so bad because that's something I've got to live with." I said as the tears ran down my face.

        We sat there in silence for a few minutes just holding each other. I could feel the baby just kicking away inside there. He or she must have sensed how nervous I am. All of a sudden the baby kicked so hard you could the the baby's little foot. I heard Sin chuckle as the baby did this. " Looks like that baby is an active little one." He said softly as he rubbed my stomach. I shivered at his touch. " Yes this one really likes to beat up my insides. Especially when I'm nervous is when the baby kicks the most."I said as smiled. The baby kept kicking, Sin had his hand on my stomach and the baby tried kicking it away. Sin laughed harder. "Do you know what your having?" He asked me. I shook my head no. "James and I decided we wanted to be surprised when peanut is born. That and I'm not ready to argue with him over names yet." Sin just laughed and placed his head on my belly. "I can hear your heartbeat and peanuts. I bet your going to have a boy. He's going to be he..." sin trailed off as the baby kicked him in the head. We both busted out laughing. Sin kissed my belly and as he did that, the baby kicked so hard. "oh yea. That's gonna be a boy. Your going to have a line backer. His kicks are strong." Sin said as he rubbed my belly. I smiled as he does this. "Peanut loves kicking me like that. It's so uncomfortable at times, but I'll take it." I said. We sat there chatting for hours when a dark shadowy figure spoke. "Hello Ivy. It's been awhile" the person said. I stopped dead in my tracks and started freaking out. I know that voice. How did he find me. I turned around and faced the person as my jaw dropped on the ground and I couldn't breathe. This can't be happening.