Something Gained

Anger

            Cam sat there in silence. I could tell he was thinking. He had a sullen look on his face.  He finally spoke. " I can't fucking keep pretending I'm okay with this. I don't agree with you and James. I don't agree it feels like your leading us both on. I don't agree you let him fuck you!" He said with such anger . It took me by surprise how angry he got. I had a feeling him saying he was okay was a complete lie.  The way he blew up at me said otherwise. "What the fuck!?!? I never agreed to anything with either of you so it's fair game on what I do." I yelled. Cam rolled his eyes at me," No Ivy, your mine. We might be dating but your mine." He said, I was taken back when he said that.
I sat in silence for a bit. I finally spoke. "I'm not a damn toy. I'm not a fucking play thing!" " You are!!!! You let James use you as his fuck toy! He knew not to touch you! He knew I want you! What does he do. And you fucking let him!!!!!" Cam yelled. I was shocked and disgusted at him. " I can't believe you! I don't tell you who you can and can't fuck! If you have forgotten. It's my damn body and I can use it anyway I want too. I'm attracted to both you and your damn brother. It's not like I thought hmm let's fuck James today! " I screamed. Cam suddenly had me pinned. My hands were above my head. I swear I heard him growl as he did this.
                He stared at me for a bit with such a look of intensity I've never seen. I shivered as we stared at each other. I tried pushing back but he held on to me tighter. "Let me go." I snarled. "No" he said. I tried getting my hands away. He finally let me go. He turned his back and paced my floor as he did. I could tell that he was angry. I went and sat outside when he stormed out and left. I just started crying. I heard my phone go off. I checked it. It was Ella.
Ella: Are you okay? I've talked to both.
Me: I'm not sure how I feel. I fucked up I think. Which I don't understand because neither of them have stuck claim on me nor am I dating either one.
Ella: Because they both love you or they are starting to fall in love with you. Regardless, there are strong feelings there. A lot of jealousy.
I sighed as I read that. She wasn't wrong about that.
Me: fuck you're right about that. I just seen a side of Cam that didn't seem like him.
Ella: Ouu then you saw Dom Cam. If it was really scary and intense, then you met the Dom side of him.
Me: Well holy shit. That's exactly the side I saw,.
  We sat and texted back and forth, I wasn't feeling well. I think today was really taking its toll on me. I get up and go inside. I do the dishes from from breakfast. I sighed and then I go to watch some tv. I'm trying to completely relax after everything that has happened.