Something Gained

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AUTHORS NOTE- THIS CHAPTER DEALS WITH SENSITIVE SUBJECT MATTER SUCH AS MENTAL HEALTH AND SUICIDE. PLEASE READ WITH CAUTION IF THIS IS TOO MUCH FOR YOU. ALSO IF YOU OR SOMEONE YOU KNOW IS STRUGGLING WITH SUICIDAL THOUGHTS OR IS TALKING ABOUT HARMING THEMSELVES, PLEASE SEEK HELP OR CALL THE SUICIDE PREVENTION LINE AT 1-800-273-8255.

          Some time had passed, it's been a few weeks now. Neo became our permanent Science teacher. I had to change my English classes as well as Ella had to change her Science. I changed with her. Sin and I are dating, Ella and Neo are dating now. James has gone downhill pretty much. He's withdrawing from almost everything, which has Ella and I concerned.  Cam has been so busy with School and working, we don't see him too much except on the weekends. Which it was better than nothing at all. I'll never forget the frantic call from Ella. James was in the hospital and no one knew why or what was wrong. Cam just called Ella crying. Then she called me. I don't remember the drive to the hospital. But I somehow got there. I Found Ella. I hugged her and Cam tightly. They both were crying. "What's going on?"I asked with concern in my voice. Cam just cried harder. Ella looked at me and said " They are saying he tried to kill himself." I fell down crying, I felt everything was ripped through my lungs.

      We all sat around until we got word that he was okay and he was gonna make it. It was visiting hours and he didn't want to see anyone but me. So I walked into his room and saw how bad he was. I tried smiling at him. He looked at me and said "Jewels. I'm scared and I need you now more than ever." I tried hiding my tears and went over to him. I gently held him and whispered to him "Im here bunny. I'm not going anywhere." I could tell he was crying but he held it back and just held onto me. "Im so grateful for you. I hope you know that. Even though I've been a complete asshole to you at times." He said. I rubbed his back and said " I know.  I love you bunny and I am here anyway you need me. I won't let you suffer alone." We just sat there for awhile. Not saying a word. We just held each other. I wasn't allowed to stay overnight like sometimes they allow. So I had to leave. Ella stayed the night with me. Neo joined us. I Excused myself because I just needed to be alone. Ella looked at me. "Are you okay hun?" She asked. "No, but i will be. Enjoy your time with Neo. I'm gonna go upstairs." I Replied. "I can go if it's an issue. I know today has been hard." Neo said. I shook my head, "She needs you right now. I'm gonna go text Sin." I said.

     I headed upstairs, I could hear them talking. I smiled because I knew she needed his time more than ever right now. I got comfortable in my bed and turned on my tv to watch some netflix. I decided to text Cam first to check in on him.

Me: Hey hun, I am just texting to see how you are holding up and to let you know that if you need me in anyway, I'm here for you.

Cam: Thanks Angel. It's just hard. I could have lost my brother today.

Me: I know, but he's gonna make it through this. Even if I have to be his sober coach.

Cam: You are amazing. Thank you so much for everything, but I'm gonna try to sleep. Goodnight Angel. I love you.

Me: Goodnight hun. Sleep well or try too. You know how to get ahold of me. I love you too.

  I just kind of sit there and think of the past everything. I remember my attempt to get away from my ex. I remember no one being there for me because no one believed me that I Was being abused as bad as I was.  No one cared how I was or how I felt. I refused to let one of my best friends feel the same way.