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[04/04/20]

I roll down my long black sleeves slowly, hoping that nobody would notice. How foolish was I for thinking that? My "classmate" noticed and decided to blare it out to the whole class that I was hiding my arms. I just hung my head down and waited for something to happen, the teacher Mr Daniels came over and said that he wanted to speak to me outside. I forcefully pushed my chair back and muttered "happily Mr Daniels" as I gave a flirtatious wink towards the evil cow that grassed me up. 

"roll your sleeves up Charlotte" he demanded

"But why sir, there's nothing there!" 

"A cause for concern was raised about your mental health, I need to follow up the concern Miss Chambers"

"Ok fine!" I proceed to roll up both sleeves "Are you happy now Mr Daniels? Is that enough for your follow up research? It was a waste of time wasn't it really, rather pathetic" all I wanted to do was get him off my case and leave me alone. I went back into class and sat down as if nothing happened, how dare she. She doesn't even care about me, never mind even know who I am. Summer Sharpe, one of those girls who party every night and think that they could pull so many guys. I don't have time for people like her getting in my way, interfering with my life so she could feel like the "class hero" instead of the "school slut". I guess things will never change about her, and things will definitely not change about me. 

I ran to the bathroom at lunch to escape all the glaring eyes, I didn't need to go to the toilet - I had something I needed to do. I unbuckled my jeans, revealing my open wounds scattered across the top and around my thighs. That's kind of the best bit, everyone assumes that the self-harm battle scars will be on the surface and easy to see like on your wrist. Most people who don't understand think that if it's done on your wrist then it's all for attention. Well, I'll tell you something, we do not do it for attention, we do it for our own personal reasons such as body image, low self-esteem, depression, mental health problems etc. But people don't seem to take that into consideration before they make their poisonous judgements. If you don't understand all the reasons why, then don't you dare try and make a comment to single us out from the rest - as if we're disgusting disappointing mistakes. The best bit, for me especially, is that they check wrists but they never check thighs. We tend to be good at keeping things like this hidden, we shouldn't have too, but poisonous people make us feel this way.

I proceed to make more marks on my thighs, writing the name of my crush into my leg like it's some personal tattoo. He doesn't even know me and with the way I am, why the hell would he want to? It wouldn't be fair on him to know because that makes me the burden. What's the point in even coming back here anyway? I'm a bad girl who has a slight crush on one of my teachers and a heavy crush on a guy who doesn't even know my name. There's nothing worth living for, not here anyway. I live by myself in a small flat where I have to sleep with the landlord every now and then to be able to live there and get food in, my life isn't worth living.

[1 week later]

Charlotte had been skipping school, nobody has seen or heard from her for a week

[2 weeks later] 

Still no response from Charlotte, the school don't have all the legal information from her, they don't know where she lives

[3 weeks later]

Police searches have begun, looking around local residences and hostels in the nearby area

[4 weeks later]

The police found Charlotte Chambers hanging from the ceiling in a small rundown flat at 15:43 on 04/05/20, they had a suspicion she died the day she disappeared on 04/04/20. She had no family contacts to realise that she was missing, never mind that she had killed herself. 

They found a note saying the date and time she took her life on that day, it gave a reason on why she did it in the first place, she was being sexually abused by an older man but gave no name or details. She died alone and was left hanging there for a month. The police started to suspect why none of her friends or anybody she knew at school hadn't noticed she had been gone for so long. 

She had hidden from everyone.

[A/N]: Suicide is a personal topic to me and it hurts me to know that there are people who view people who struggle as attention seekers and disgusting. I've been finding it hard during this quarantine and I know that I'm not the only one. We all need to watch and be mindful of our mental health states and of each other in the best way we can. Please don't be judging people for what they do or for why they do it, just offer them support if they need it, as we're all in this together. Spread the love guys x