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Suicide prevention

Suicide is not a topic to be joked about or to be taken for granted. It is happening behind sad and lonely closed doors, the thoughts even affect the closest of friends, family members and partners in broad daylight - and we might not even notice. But they most likely won't share it as they may think that it's 'stupid' or 'that it'll pass'. From experience, it doesn't pass - it, unfortunately, grows stronger and stronger; the best part is that even though you know that there are people who are more than willing to support you, but you feel like they're all against you. It's sad to hear and read about how many men and women have turned to suicide, as well as those who turned to that option and weren't successful; where people thought that they could escape how they feel by taking their own life.

The topic of suicide is a very personal topic for me, so every time I see a comment saying "it's all for attention" and that "it's all fake and put on - pathetic" purely sickens me. People who suffer are genuine people like you and I, but there are unfortunately forms of media which promote suicide in more of a negative way than it's already perceived, such as magazine articles which are overexaggerated or not exaggerated and emphasised enough. I've heard people say that "it's all a joke" and "people do it to be like celebrities - to get sympathy and more attention". It's funny how it's 2020 and there are still small and ill-minded people joking about serious topics that have legit statistics tied to them. Suicide doesn't just affect those who are having 'mid-life crisis', suicide affects everyone at pretty much any age from 10 years old. Isn't it sad that a 10-year-old had the thought and the knowledge of how to end their own life? What were you thinking when you were 10 years old? Because I can bet that it wasn't about killing yourself.

Now I'm going to share something that people will most likely not know. So you may know me very well, a bit or not at all, but I in fact have suicidal; thoughts as well as other stuff. No, I'm not doing this for any attention towards myself or any sympathy. I'm doing this to prove a point. I also have another issue inside my head - but I've not been officially diagnosed with anything yet, which is utterly down to my choice. That is because I don't want to be judged or told that I'm crazy or weird. I think that's the main and worst part about it, I'm scared for it to be written down in black and white (which I can't read so I need it on purple as that's another thing I suffer from) and then being labelled with it for the rest of my life, and even when I'm dead. Long story short, I have "something" in my head. Now I say "something" because he isn't a person and I refuse to have my thought be controlled and dominated by a creature who I can only see and hear. I won't reveal his name, but my point is that I've been dealing with that in secret. I was too ashamed to open up about it or to cause any problems for other people once they knew.

So, here I am sharing my own thoughts and feelings about suicide as the whole lockdown has given me loads of time to actually think about myself (if you don't know me I literally put everyone else before myself and my own general health, as I believe that's my 'purpose' for being born). Don't get me wrong, I love helping people but sometimes it's nice to think about yourself for a little while. I have in fact been dealing with the thoughts and the thing in my head for 2 - 3 years now and I've primarily kept it quiet. So trust me when I say I know what it's like to be in a dark position.

In the UK, we have a mental health awareness week between the 18th and 24th May (other countries may have the same or equivalent but on a different day, I live in the UK so I'm not too sure) and it mainly focuses on its slogan of "Britan get talking" in an attempt to get more people opening up and talking about what may be troubling them and how they're really feeling, especially in this current situation.

If anyone does start to feel or have been feeling in a dark way, I recommend using an anonymous counselling website called "KOOTH" which I find particularly helpful - especially as I can get quite embarrassed about it. Another way of acting upon these thoughts is talking to a close friend or someone you really trust, as it's nice to get things off your chest, especially to someone who is willing to hear you rant and support you no matter what.

Don't think that 'just because you're not feeling 100%' or that your mental health isn't as it should be, doesn't mean that you're embarrassing or a 'waste of space'. Find a way to keep your brain active, especially during the lockdown and general dark and horrible times. I suggest that art is a good way to express how you feel, whether you can draw or not, grab a notebook that's not important and let those feelings out onto those pages.

If anyone has any questions or just wants a chat, feel free to message me and I will respond as quickly and effectively as possible.