One-Shot Stories Compilation (Part Three)

THIRTY ONE

NORMAL LANG BA?

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Everything went smoothly after my first heartbreak. Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit nila pinoproblema 'yon at kung bakit masiyado silang nasaktan. Sa akin kasi ay hindi. Madali.

Wala lang. Balik lang ako sa dating buhay ko. Walang kachat, walang kilig, walang kahit ano na related sa pagmamahal. Sa una, boring. Sa una, mami-miss mo siya. Sa una, 'di ka sanay. Pero sa una lang ang lahat ng 'yon. Magiging masaya ka rin naman ulit after some time.

Pero akala ko lang pala 'yon.

I stalked him one day, and I saw his bio. It's the name his new girlfriend. There's even pictures showing how sweet they are. I don't know what to feel. Hindi ko alam kung dapat ba akong may maramdaman.

Everyday went like that. Titingin ako sa bio niya at titingnan kung nagbago 'yon. Pero hindi. I started to feel jealousy and I know that it's really bad. It's disturbing me again! My damn feelings for him.

Years passed.

Ganoon pa rin.

Walang nagbago sa nararamdaman ko para sa kaniya. Hindi ko nga alam kung magbabago pa.

Walang special sa araw na 'to para sa akin. Pero sa kanila, meron.

Kasal nila ngayon.

Hindi ako pumasok sa trabaho ngayong araw at nagmukmok lang sa kwarto ko. Anong magagawa ko kung kasal na sila? Tsaka wala akong karapatang tumutol roon. Kung mayroon lang ay ginawa ko na dati pa. I was his past, she is his present and probably, his future too.

I'm really happy for him.

But I can't be happy for myself.

Imagine, he was yours but just because of some problem, you both gave up. Pero ikaw lang ang nagsisi. Nagsisi na binitawan mo siya dahil lang wala kang pagpipilian. Imagine him holding another hand. Imagine that he's giving the love to someone he once gave you. Just imagine that he's with another woman...

And until now, I keep on asking myself,

Normal lang ba na masaktan ka pa rin after how many years of moving on?

Normal lang ba na umaasa ka pa rin sa kaniya kahit alam mo namang wala ka na talagang pag-asa?

Normal lang ba na kumapit pa rin kahit wala naman ng kinakapitan?

Normal lang ba talaga?

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sorry for errors. 🤧