His Ignored Love

Ignored 14

A/N: sorry sa mga typo and grammatical error. Happy reading!

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Quarter to four in the morning yet I'm still awake since yesterday. I was walking in the dark road in the middle of the dawn with no direction.

The cold wind that hugs me gave an unexplainable feeling, the silence make me think deeply of the things I was afraid off.

I walked and walked until I found myself in the park. The dark, empty and silent park. It was already closed but I found a way to get in. I sat on the wood bench placed in the oval. I hugged myself when the cold wind blew. I was only wearing a short short and loose shirt, so it's normal for me to get cold.

Why I haven't thought to bring a jacket anyway? And why I am here?

Because I want peace. I want to give my mind a peace to think clearly. I want an answer, why the hell I was ignoring Jaze but my mind can't do the same? Why the hell I hated him but my heart can't feel that way? Why the hell I want him to get lost but my heart is breaking of the thought? Why the hell I can't accept him as my husband but my heart already did?

Why?

I have so many questions but none of them been answered.

Why I am hurting?

I sighed and stand up and lean on the railings and looked up in the sky. "I want answer. Answer to all my questions: unsaid and unfigured question."

"Ask me,"

Napatalon ako sa gulat dahil sa nagsalita sa likod ko. Napahawak pa ako sa dibdib ko na ang bilis na ng tibok. "Jaze?" I roamed my eyes. "What are you doing here?"

He sat on the bench where I was sitted and his both hand slid inside his jersey pocket while looking at me with his deep hazel brown serious eyes. His eyes were full of unsaid words that he can't voice it out.

"Ask me, Diane." He said.

Napaiwas ako ng tingin ng hindi makayanan ang intensidad na nakikita sa mga mata niya.

"Look at me, Diane, and ask me," pero hindi ko siya sinunod.

Ang lakas ng tibok ng puso ko at ramdam ko ang pagnginig ng mga kamay ko dahil ilang hakbang lang ang layo naming dalawa.

Another question again. Why I am feelings this way when I haven't feel anything earlier when I talked to him asleep?

"Look at me, my queen,"

That's it! When he called me using the endearment, I turned around so he won't see my tears which I didn't know where it coming from, and walked away.

"You're running away again?" I stopped. "Fine, go run away but I'm telling you, I won't stop chasing you."

I didn't turn around. I remain standing. "I won't be tired of chasing you," I heared his foot steps slowly nearing where I was standing. "I won't let you go even if you do to me, I won't." He stopped from walking. I felt the heat of his body from my back. I felt his breath on my ear. "I won't because I love you."

Agaran akong napatalikod para sigawan siya, "bakit-" hindi ko na natapos pa dahil lumapat na ang labi niya sa labi ko.

His soft lips gave an electric feeling on me. Pero imbes na gumaan ang pakiramdam ko ay maslalo pang bumigat. He move his lips but I remain steady. He bit my lower lip asking for my entrance but as what I do back on Samal, I pushed him away, again.

"Gago ka ba?!" I shouted as my tears falling down.

"My queen," tinangka niyang abotin ang kamay ko pero umiwas ako. "Don't touch me!" I took a step backward when he took a step forward.