SHUT UP. ( K. COSENTINO )

044.

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MATTIA WAITED UNTIL DELANEY finally fell asleep before gently moving out from under her. He leaned down, kissing the drunk girls forehead with a frown and grabbed a hoodie, texting Ryland he was on his way to help with the bags.

Before he left the room, he glanced back and saw that Kairi's room key wasn't on the tv stand and mentally begged the boy not to show up and wake up the girl that he had spent the past hour comforting.

He paused for another second and bounced back towards the bed, throwing his blanket from home over her body and plugging in her phone so that it was charged for the morning. He also grabbed a water from their mini fridge and placed it next to her with the crackers he had gotten on their way back to the room, finally deeming it okay to leave her.

Across the hotel, Kairi was just stepping into the elevator besides Alejandro, neither of them talking. In fact, Kairi was fighting the urge to slam his friend up against the wall for hurting Delaney, not that he hadn't either, but he wanted his anger to be out so that he could think clearly.

"You're a piece of shit," he finally snapped, glaring as Alejandro's face dropped in shock. "I'm a piece of shit? You did the same damn thing that I did — even after you saw what happened," he scoffed and turned away from him, not in the mood to argue with a boy who had no idea how guilty he was.

Alejandro had never meant to hurt Delaney, or maybe, deep down, he did. He had always seen the way that everyone looked at her and the thought of having her to himself just felt too good to be true. And he had overheard the way she laughed while on the phone with the boy next to him the day before they'd arrived at playlist. She laughed a way that he had never made her laugh before.

"I never fucked Celia," Kairi defended himself loudly, turning around to glare at his friend as the elevator continued to climb towards their floor. Alejandro rolled his eyes, clearly not believing a word that was coming out of his mouth, but Kairi was telling the truth.

"I was only still talking to her because she had all these videos of Laney drunk this week and she was threatening to post them. You know how much Delaney adores her fans, Alejandro. She wouldn't want them to look at her different even though she was doing something that all teenagers do."

Alejandro sighed and finally looked Kairi in the eyes, trying to ignore the fact that Kairi had gotten the girl he had always wanted, but he deserved her. Alejandro had his chance and had fucked it up himself, Kairi was just trying to defend the girl that he had broken.

"So tell her that," he finally muttered, stepping out of the elevator as it finally reached their floor. Kairi followed him, looking down the hallway towards his room and then back the other way where he knew he could spend the night with other friends and leave this to wait a couple days.

"Tell her truth — she deserves it," Alejandro said one last time, gently patting Kairi's shoulder before he walked towards him and Robert's room and disappeared inside.

Kairi took a deep breathe and walked confidently up to his own room. His confidence fell as soon as he unlocked the door and stepped into the dim space, eying the body on Mattia's bed with a frown.

Delaney was curled up in a ball underneath Mattia's blanket, her damp hair surrounding her body as she slept peacefully. He had no idea why her hair was wet but that wasn't the problem, the problem was that the moment she woke up, he couldn't escape the conversation.

When she felt the bed dip in at the edge, Delaney groaned and moved over a few inches, waiting expectantly for Mattia to reclaim his spot. Only when she didn't feel him get up did she open her eyes, her head begining to spin at the sight of Kairi rather than her friend.

"What are you doing here?" She asked quietly, still far too out of it to yell at him. Even if she had been sober, Delaney was just too exhausted to keep fighting with the boy who was staring at her. She wanted him to just leave her alone to get over the fact that she had put her trust in him just for it to fail.

"I want to explain myself," Kairi whispered, waiting for her to snap our of it and demand that he leave. Delaney only sat up and pulled the blanket to her chin, trying not to cry at the sight of him.

"You already did."

"No I didn't," Kairi shook his head quickly and moved a bit closer to her, internally cheering when she didn't move away like she had at the party.

"I haven't been getting with Celia — I put that on everything, okay? She just kept going on and on about wanting to finally show everyone that you weren't perfect and I just pretended to be her friend so that she wouldn't post anything about you," he blurted, watching as Delaney didn't move a muscle.

He had expected the confession to bring automatic forgiveness, or maybe, at least, a smile, but her expression didn't change at all. She just stared at him with the same blank eyes that she had been since he walked in.

"It's not your job to protect me," she mumbled and brought the blanket down an inch, still using it to hide the fact that her whole body was shaking. She wanted to cry and she didn't even know why.

"It's my job to make sure that you don't get hurt," Kairi argued, moving even closer to her and she sighed and slammed her head back against the wooden headboard.

"I can take care of myself," she snapped, emotion finally finding its way into her words as she fought with herself on what the right way to be feeling was.

"I was just trying to make sure—"

"Thank you," she cut him off abruptly and Kairi froze, unsure if he had heard her correctly. In a matter of seconds, she had just gone from being angry at him to thanking him?

She gave him one last look and laid back down, turning away from him so that he couldn't see that she had began to cry.

"I'm really tired," she whispered, closing her eyes as she ignored the stinging behind her eyelids. Kairi nodded and stood up, gently kissing her head as she flinched beneath him.

He sighed and grabbed a change of clothes before leaving the room like he had never been there, his own tears finally falling as he closed the door.

And the girl who was alone yet again just let herself breakdown, the internal battle going on in her head relentlessly doing nothing to aid the way she felt.

yeah they aren't good just like that