Divergent ~ zombie apocalypse

Chapter 31

Shauna's POV

I wake up with the sun in my eyes.

I walk down the stairs and eat a apple.

It's bad that I'm adapting to this place. I've wanted to avoid making this place feel like home.

I hate this apocalypse I hate it hate it hate it.

I sit on the floor and drunk from a cup that has expired orange juice in it.

Zeke comes down a few minutes later and nudges me on the shoulder.

I sigh and lay down on the ground.

I remember Al's last moment.

~

"Oh come on Al calm down this'll blow over when we get to the place where we started," Uriah's voice screams at Al.

"And quite being such a pansycake seriously. It's not like you're going to kill yourself."

I grab his arm and pull his hands away from his eyes, he has a few tears flowing down.

"Quit beating yourself up, we're all a mess. Just find something to stop all the grieving, it'll get better, I promise."

And finding something to stop the grieving was to end it all the together.

~

A gun shot sucks the breath out of everyone one in the room.

"Where's Christina?" Tris says a million years later.

We stand up and run to the yard.

Christina stands there in shock staring at everyone.

"I...I..."

Zeke grabs her hand and pulls her up pushing her back a little.

"What do you think you're doing Christina?"

"Were you going to kill yourself Chris?" Tris yells.

"Do you guys not even realize how alone I feel? Do you not even notice me?"

"That's going to attract them." I would've said if I didn't have little knives tied in my throat.

And it probably will, but no one says anything.

Tris hugs Christina and everyone walks back inside.

But not me. I run.

I run fast faster and faster.

How long is far, I don't know anymore.

"Shauna," I hear in the distance and start to climb the tree closest to me.

I peek out the leaves and see open area not far from us.

They might not of heard it, maybe, maybe.

Zeke said they were far away from us once.

But that does not mean we'll be okay.

I jump off the tree and the landing stings my feet. I run back to the house to see Zeke standing in front of the kitchen cabinets.

I sigh as his eyes meet mine.

I walk up to him and wrap my hands around his waist.

"I don't like this side of Zeke."

His hands find my hips and squeeze them.

His strong hands on my hips.

"This part of Zeke is what keeps people alive."

I sigh, "I still like the Zeke that's like this."

"I'm only this in front of you."

I smile and nestle my head in his chest. "I'm happy for that."

He kisses my forehead.

"Do you think they'll come?"

"No doubt in my mind."

I want to scream, "I hate this place," I say furiously.

"We should pack and then sleep." He says slowly.

I nod.

Tris's POV

I get Christina a blanket and set her on the bed, "I'm sleeping here tonight."

"I just killed us all."

"No you didn't Christina, we'll be fine."

"LIAR LIAR YOURE A LIAR."

"Calm down."

"FUCKING LIAR WERE GOING TO DIE I KNOW IT. ITS MY FAULT WERE GOING TO DIE."

I slap her, "CALM DOWN."

She frowns.

I sigh and sit on the bed next to her, "sorry-I just-sorry."

"I killed us, and what if I did die, that would be selfish, so selfish and I almost did it."

I sigh, I argue but I know she's right. Killing herself and jeopardizing everyone. I can not even think about thinking about doing it.

It's not in me.

Then she says something I never wanted her to, "that's the only reason I didn't do it."

"Christina, you can't-can't do that, you're too beautiful, too special."

"Beauty means nothing in this world."

"I don't mean on the outside, you can't kill the person you learned to love being."

Silence grows.

"I don't love me now, I'm too strong and I have abs and I've fired a gun and everyone I loved is gone and I don't like this me."

"Doesn't matter, we should trust each other at least not to kill ourselves."

She crushes my bones in a hug, "I really hate you right now for making me change my mind."

I attempt at a laugh.

But I am scared.

I know what comes next and so does everyone, but no one says it to anyone.

I close my eyes and dread for tomorrow.