let me love you ~ michael jackson & ariana grande

diana ross

  March 2nd, 1981

Ariana

I guess you could say a lot has gone on during these past 3 years. My crush on Michael hasn't gotten any better, in fact, it's gotten worse.

The only thing I've got going for me is my singing sort of. After Michael's suggestion of Seth Riggs for a vocal coach, I decided to look into him.

I do genuinely want to get better at singing, maybe I could make it a full time thing even but that would probably years away.

After booking my first lesson, I was a bit hesitant only because I hate singing in front of people, the Jackson thing was only a one time thing plus I was put on the spot so it's not like I even had a choice.

Anyway, my first lesson went pretty smoothly. I have to say Michael was right, Seth Riggs knows what he's doing.

I started booking more and more and even I was starting to hear a difference in my voice, for the better.

Now, things haven't really progressed with Michael and I. We talk way more than we used to but even that isn't enough.

I have noticed that he's became more happy in the last year, I mean, who wouldn't be when their own album is doing absolutely amazing?

All I have to say is that I'm proud of him, Off the Wall has been such a huge success and I think it did give him that push in his solo career that he needed.

Janet did tell me he was upset at one point last year though, something about him only earning one award at the grammy's.

Which is still such an accomplishment, one grammy is better than no grammy. But I can tell he's a perfectionist, anyone could to be honest.

So it isn't very surprising that he was disappointed with himself but nonetheless, he's still amazing in my eyes.

And great. I'm doing it again, fantasizing about Michael and wondering if I'll ever have a shot.

I need to stop doing this, he could never like me in the way that I like him. I know he only sees me as his little sisters friend so why even try?

As I'm about to attempt to get him out of my head, the phone starts to ring.

I leap from my bed to my desk and pick up the landline.

"Hello?"

"Ariana, I need you to come over right now. We're having a family barbecue and no one is even remotely close to my age. I've been organizing books as a way to keep myself entertained."

"Okay, geez, you must be really bored then."

"You think?"

"I'll be right there."

I place the phone back down and go downstairs to get ready.

"Bellissima, you going to Janet's?"

I face my grandma while I slip my jacket on.

"How did you know?"

He chuckles. "Please, her house is like your second home."

"True." I walk over and give him a kiss on the cheek.

"Have fun."

"I always do."

And with that sentence, I'm already half way to the Jackson house.

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"How could you be bored here? Your family is the best." I exclaim while eating some barbecue ribs, that are delicious, by the way.