Find me

Chapter 29

I've been crying for an hour, holding my mother's picture. They are morons, they always used to make fun of me, and look like I'm their easy target. They live in the same street as me, some are my classmates and some are their local street friends whenever they find me, all of them start teasing me, they pulled my hair, throw my things, and sometimes they spill water on me.

I'm 13 now and I can fight for myself. I can't endure it anymore because I don't want to. And after today's morning incident it looks like they never stop it. In the morning when I was going to my school, they came from nowhere and spill ink all over my uniform and start laughing at me like this is the funniest thing they'd ever done. And I couldn't do anything except cry on myself.

The next morning I dressed up for my school hoping that I don't bump into them again. On my way to school, I hear some noises, coming from the park near our street, I went closer and found all of those morons are lying on the ground, crying in pain and then I notice that they were pleading to a boy standing in front of them, his back is on my side. I can't see his face.

I pull myself further to see him clearly when that boy kicked one of them on his side so hard with his feet that he crumbled backwards "Don't you dare to go near to her ever again or I'll kill you all" that boy yelled at them. He stops in mid and slightly turns his head to me but still, I can't see his face. After a couple of seconds, he turns to me and I'm about to see him when my alarm starts ringing and my eyes flick open, again that was a dream. A dream which felt real like it belongs to me.

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Laura is waiting at the canteen for me. I tell her about Edwin.

Annoyingly, the first thing she says is "They all are a jerk, so don't bother yourself".

I nodded and grabbed my coffee from the counter "I don't know why they hate me so much, it frustrates me" I realize my tone was a little too loud, so I add "I'm sorry it's just an annoying subject".

"Obviously. Just be careful" she warns me sweetly and I promise her that I will.

The rest of the day zooms by and Laura doesn't bring up Dorian or Edwin again. Finally, all classes are over and now I can spend some rest of my time in the library because reading is something which made me forget everything. And I love that.

By the time I reach the library, only a few people were there. I searched the piles of books, looking for something interesting and I hold my breath as my eyes darted toward him. Dorian is sitting on the chair, both of his hands are on a big table in front of him, and his hair is a mess, sprawled all over his forehead. Damn! He's beautiful.

I froze there, my chest ached at the sight of him. He's is reading something, and didn't care who come and gone. Seeing him again alive and so close increased my heartbeat, his blue eyes blazing and caught me off guard as he turns his face up to see me. Something was snaking around my stomach, clenching and unclenching, as the memory of our last moments together came flooding back.

He remained seated, his hands still resting on the table. His face was pale and I had never seen him like this ever before but he sat straight with shoulders squared, which made him seem more tall and strong, as he had been before. His eyes are not stony and cold anymore like they used to be, it seems like they're pleading, filled with sorrow and pain. It's like they're saying something to me. He never felt stranger to me, it always felt like I know him from a long time ago.

He didn't say anything and let the silence linger, watching me. I pulled myself away from the memories, from the past.

I cleared my throat "Um...." When I hear a voice, I lifted my eyes, Luke is coming toward me "Here you are, I've been looking for you" he says as he comes and stood in front of me.

I glanced over at Dorian and then back again at Luke "Umm... I came here to grab some books" I replied when I hear Dorian push the chair so hard that it falls to the ground. Our gaze flickered toward the noise when I see him walking away through the doorway.

Without thinking anything I start walking towards him but Luke grabs my wrist "Where are you going?" he asks.

"I have something to take care" I replied and starts sprinting towards the doorway.

I weaved towards the front of the library, but I can't see him anywhere. I follow the front pathway 'Where does he go?' I ask myself. It's like he disappears again. No, please not now.

I ran again, I will not going to give up this time, I'm not letting him go like he always does. He needs to answer my thousand questions.

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I have been running for an hour. And I started to pant, it was like I'm going to faint at any moment. The sky is dark now. Only the street light gives me hope that I can find him. I faltered forward but doesn't fall to the ground.

I hear a pounding heartbeat drumming against my ear as I bumped into someone. Clammy hands hold me, they moved to my waist and then my shoulders, their grip tight against my skin, holding me straight. I turned my face up and saw those beautiful eyes are watching me.

"I find you" I whispered.